That is me, I have fallen behind on my blog and other things.
I have be fighting with the computer again it was moving oh so very slow. So dh and I cleared some things off it and in doing so I messed up my photo shop CS2 which took me a couple of days to try and fix it, I was getting a bit frustrated..lol... I need to play with my photos. It is up and running good now.
Went a bought a new car seat for Ri the other day. I got the same kind I have for Lil O it is just a different color. As we were in the store (Mum and B) the sales lady came up and spoke with mum (I was looking at the seat) and I heard mum say we are here for a car seat for the wee guy and the sales lady said Oh he does not have a car seat? I said he has one but it is the bucket seat and he does not like it much. Then she looked at the one I was looking at and took the number down and walked away, I though ok she is going to check something on it?? She came back asked for my # then said I could pick it up at the docking area. I looked at her and said well I am not sure I want it yet I need to try my son in it 1st to make sure he sits in it fine. Ri fit fine it it he was smiling away while he sat in it..lol Mum and B had gift cards they put towards it which took $50.00 off it (every little bit helps) Before we picked it up at the docks we went down the mall to Wally world and as I was in line up there this women asked if she could have my cart, she was behind me as I looked at B and asked if he still needed it and when I turn towards the lady we both looked at each other and was shocked to see each other we said each others names at the same time and laughed. We grew up on the same street when I was a kid and my parents were still together, he little sis and I were best buds. I have not seen her in about 20 yrs...lol She does not look so tall anymore which means I have grown over the years.
When we got back to mums I put the new seat in the car had a cup of tea and we were on our way to a friends house for a visit. Orion played well there even when the little girl sprayed him with the hose he did not flinch (it was hot out so it probably felt good to him..lol) It was another late night for the boys but they did good again.
Oh and I got my hair cut yesterday, it was below my bra strap and now it sits at my shoulders and she straightened my hair. I like the cut but still debating on the length of it (good thing my hair grows like a weed) I think I may like it a bit longer. She also kept commenting on how much hair I have, guess I have a lot of it and thick..lol
For the last week Ri has been sleeping for 6 to 7hrs a night (that is when I go to bed at midnight) he actually falls asleep at 9pm and I wake him to feed at midnight when I go to bed and he sleeps thru his feed (dream feeds they call it) then we sleep till then he wakes up at 7a-7:30am
Lil O sure likes to copy what you say now, so we have to be careful in what we say good thing we do not swear in this house it is the other people we have to worry about.
that is my update for the moment... I will be updating photos real soon... Oh I did get some scrapbooking done I will take pics of them too.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Ri made mommy want to CRY
what a nightmare of a day it was yesterday afternoon, he just would not stop SCREAMING. Lil 'O was holding his head and mommy was on the verge of tears. When dh came home all he had to do was look at me and he knew so he took Ri from me.
I am having a bit of a hard time with this little boy of mine, every time I try to go to the park or where ever Ri starts to scream his little head off, sometimes I still go out but most of it I just stay in.....I am a cooped up mommy a friend even called me a hermit the other day.
Am I bad to want a break from Rilon, I feel bad because I tried so hard for these boys and now I am asking for a break from one...
I am having a bit of a hard time with this little boy of mine, every time I try to go to the park or where ever Ri starts to scream his little head off, sometimes I still go out but most of it I just stay in.....I am a cooped up mommy a friend even called me a hermit the other day.
Am I bad to want a break from Rilon, I feel bad because I tried so hard for these boys and now I am asking for a break from one...
things i like less (or hate)
I have been tagged by Daisy with "things I hate" meme .
Hate hate hate hmmm I try not to use that word.
Tag your it.... Lynanne, Shielalee & Jules
Hate hate hate hmmm I try not to use that word.
1. Food you hate – Not a sea food fan at all
2. Fruits you hate – I can not think of the name
3. Veggies that you hate - Broccoli
4. Celebrities or people that you hate – The ones that act stupid on purpose
5. Event/Incident/Situation that you hate – sickness & death in the family & loved ones
6. TV shows or movies that you hate – Little bear drive me nuts & Ruby and max (no adult show come to mind at the moment and I know there are a few I don't like)
7. Type of music that you hate – Hard rock or punk
8. Household chore that you hate – Laundry (which I happen to be doing at the moment)
9. Things you hate about the world – All these different Religions (why can they not get along)
10. Things you hate about yourself – That I am finding it hard to get out! And that I do not call my friends as often as I should.
Tag your it.... Lynanne, Shielalee & Jules
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
I have not forgotton
about blogging just been busy with a tiny little guy who seems to demand my attention...
It has been nice here for the last week and so I decided to go to the park ( I have not been out to much, call me a hermit) but as usual Ri starts to scream his head off then it sets Lil O off and I try to get things ready to go out and while I do this I am thinking is it really worth it... to go out....yes, yes it is. Lil O needs to get out as do I, Ri will get used to it in time I guess.
We survived and Ri fell asleep while Lil O and I played, it was a nice hour of fun.
It has been nice here for the last week and so I decided to go to the park ( I have not been out to much, call me a hermit) but as usual Ri starts to scream his head off then it sets Lil O off and I try to get things ready to go out and while I do this I am thinking is it really worth it... to go out....yes, yes it is. Lil O needs to get out as do I, Ri will get used to it in time I guess.
We survived and Ri fell asleep while Lil O and I played, it was a nice hour of fun.
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Monday, June 25, 2007
Why do I do this...
I belong to a photography group on line and someone posted a question about bereavement photography "now i lay me down to sleep" photos of babies that have died. The photographer goes and take the photos free of charge, precious memories for the parents. so I checked out the site knowing full well..... I bawled.
Dh came into the room and said whats wrong? I tried to tell him but I could not stop crying, I finally got it out. His response was don't show me, it is too hard. Then he said why do you do this?
Why do I do this... I don't know but something pulls me in that direction it is hard to explain, I kind of know the pain these parents feel.
The site was beautiful and so very touching.
I would do this if I could, maybe when my boys are older.......
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Later that night I was watching TV while feeding Ri and well it was about a boy that was kidnapped and I started to cry yet again, dh looked at me and said "why do you do this to yourself" I said your right and changed the channel.... and hugged my baby close to me.
Dh came into the room and said whats wrong? I tried to tell him but I could not stop crying, I finally got it out. His response was don't show me, it is too hard. Then he said why do you do this?
Why do I do this... I don't know but something pulls me in that direction it is hard to explain, I kind of know the pain these parents feel.
The site was beautiful and so very touching.
I would do this if I could, maybe when my boys are older.......
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Later that night I was watching TV while feeding Ri and well it was about a boy that was kidnapped and I started to cry yet again, dh looked at me and said "why do you do this to yourself" I said your right and changed the channel.... and hugged my baby close to me.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Went to the Zoo
Yesterday, what a beautiful day it was too. The Zoo was packed I mean packed..lol.
I met up with my mum and sis H. When we went to pay that is when I noticed that they raised the entrance fee $ 20.00 up $5 from last year(I did not notice the price increase when I went a few weeks ago because I had a free pass), so now you better stay for then then just 1hr or 2... we stayed four..lol Lil O walked for most of it only sat to eat. He had so much fun, and he was such a good boy. The only thing that scared him was the elephants.
here are a couple of photos.
I met up with my mum and sis H. When we went to pay that is when I noticed that they raised the entrance fee $ 20.00 up $5 from last year(I did not notice the price increase when I went a few weeks ago because I had a free pass), so now you better stay for then then just 1hr or 2... we stayed four..lol Lil O walked for most of it only sat to eat. He had so much fun, and he was such a good boy. The only thing that scared him was the elephants.
here are a couple of photos.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Monday, June 18, 2007
Naughty spot
Yes that is right the naughty spot has begun....
For a couple of weeks I feel like the only conversation Lil O and I have is me saying "No", "Not A toy" "Don't touch that" NO..... It gets real tiring after awhile and I don't want just those words coming out of my mouth, KWIM. Plus he now says no no lots..lol
So I was trying to think of what I could do after my 1,2,3 count (I don't like the spanking idea) and then it hit me a few nights ago while Supernanny was on (I have not seen this show for a while) the NAUGHTY SPOT...hmmmm I thought to myself. I started to look around my maid floor to think of the best naughty spot spot, which is beside the stairs going up and between the front door.
Then I put it to the test.....
I was cleaning and Lil O was wanting to touch the computer I told him no, don't touch that please, when he did it again I told him that is 1 ( he pulls his hands away) then he went for it again I said in a firmer voice O that is 2, If mommy has to tell you 3 you go to the Naughty spot. 2minutes go by he is just sitting there and then he reaches out and pushes the computer button and then looks at me... I said to him 3 to the naughty spot, mommy said not to touch and you did not listen. I took him to the spot sat him down and said you sit in the naughty spot for a minute because you did not listen and I walked away. He cried and got up and walked away I took him back sat him down and said you did not listen you stay in the naughty spot, then walked away again. He tried to walk away again I took him back without saying a word sat him down and walked away. And guess what he stayed he really stayed mind you e was crying his little head off but he stayed for the minute, then I went to him he gave me a hug and we went about our day.
The next day I used it again in the morning, I only had to put him in the spot once and he stayed crying, but for the rest of the day I never had to get to 3... can he really get it that fast. Most of the time when I'd say that's ONE he'd pull his hand back look at me and I'd say remember 3 means Naughty Spot and then he'd think about it a moment and move on to something else...lol YEAH.
Now I have to stick to my guns.
For a couple of weeks I feel like the only conversation Lil O and I have is me saying "No", "Not A toy" "Don't touch that" NO..... It gets real tiring after awhile and I don't want just those words coming out of my mouth, KWIM. Plus he now says no no lots..lol
So I was trying to think of what I could do after my 1,2,3 count (I don't like the spanking idea) and then it hit me a few nights ago while Supernanny was on (I have not seen this show for a while) the NAUGHTY SPOT...hmmmm I thought to myself. I started to look around my maid floor to think of the best naughty spot spot, which is beside the stairs going up and between the front door.
Then I put it to the test.....
I was cleaning and Lil O was wanting to touch the computer I told him no, don't touch that please, when he did it again I told him that is 1 ( he pulls his hands away) then he went for it again I said in a firmer voice O that is 2, If mommy has to tell you 3 you go to the Naughty spot. 2minutes go by he is just sitting there and then he reaches out and pushes the computer button and then looks at me... I said to him 3 to the naughty spot, mommy said not to touch and you did not listen. I took him to the spot sat him down and said you sit in the naughty spot for a minute because you did not listen and I walked away. He cried and got up and walked away I took him back sat him down and said you did not listen you stay in the naughty spot, then walked away again. He tried to walk away again I took him back without saying a word sat him down and walked away. And guess what he stayed he really stayed mind you e was crying his little head off but he stayed for the minute, then I went to him he gave me a hug and we went about our day.
The next day I used it again in the morning, I only had to put him in the spot once and he stayed crying, but for the rest of the day I never had to get to 3... can he really get it that fast. Most of the time when I'd say that's ONE he'd pull his hand back look at me and I'd say remember 3 means Naughty Spot and then he'd think about it a moment and move on to something else...lol YEAH.
Now I have to stick to my guns.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Ri had his 3m Dr appointment today
But let me tell you that as I was getting ready to leave the house I changed his diaper 3x's yup 3x's in a matter of 5minutes..lol the reason for this is that he PEED on me 3 times in a row. After the second time I thought well there can not be more...so I washed him down with baby soap and water and just as I was down pee all over again.....I thought WHAT THE...lol...DH was laughing.
Finally got Ri dressed (by this time he is screaming his little head off) put him in the car seat which he did not like one bit. DH said enjoy your drive..ha ha very funny.
Ri cried the whole way (30 min drive) only stopped to catch his breathe.....man does he have a good set of lungs on him.
anyways, Dr N is happy with his growth he is climbing the chart well and he is very proportioned.
Weight ~ 9 lbs 13oz (4 141 gram)
Height ~ 22 inches (56.5 cm)
Dr was nice she gave me 4 little cans of Enfamil A+ formula.
Went to Wal-Mart afterwards for some things and when I came out the clouds were dark, and as I was putting Ri in the car and I turned to walk around to my side these 2 men were standing behind the car (kind of freaked me out, I thought they were looking at me) looking up behind me so I turned and look and there was a funnel cloud, I never saw one in real life before (not that I want to either) I wished I had my camera on me at that point and I hoped that nothing came of it either. Nothing did come of it...thanks the heavens. because we have nowhere to hide if it did, our basement is a walk out and we have very big window down there and it is not developed all the way yet.
Well that was my day.
Finally got Ri dressed (by this time he is screaming his little head off) put him in the car seat which he did not like one bit. DH said enjoy your drive..ha ha very funny.
Ri cried the whole way (30 min drive) only stopped to catch his breathe.....man does he have a good set of lungs on him.
anyways, Dr N is happy with his growth he is climbing the chart well and he is very proportioned.
Weight ~ 9 lbs 13oz (4 141 gram)
Height ~ 22 inches (56.5 cm)
Dr was nice she gave me 4 little cans of Enfamil A+ formula.
Went to Wal-Mart afterwards for some things and when I came out the clouds were dark, and as I was putting Ri in the car and I turned to walk around to my side these 2 men were standing behind the car (kind of freaked me out, I thought they were looking at me) looking up behind me so I turned and look and there was a funnel cloud, I never saw one in real life before (not that I want to either) I wished I had my camera on me at that point and I hoped that nothing came of it either. Nothing did come of it...thanks the heavens. because we have nowhere to hide if it did, our basement is a walk out and we have very big window down there and it is not developed all the way yet.
Well that was my day.
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Photo Hunters ~ Shoes
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He will hate me for this later. Here is my son and for some reason he has a thing for shoes as you can see..lol He tries to wear them all the time or else he carries them. (he is also attempting to sign shoes)
Friday, June 08, 2007
Someone asked....
What were YOUR parents like.........?
Hmmmmm.
They are divorced...and when he divorced her he divorced me too, walked away washed his hands of me. I feel like he left me because I chose to live with my mum, my 3 sisters stayed with him (I was 9yrs old) (yes I know the reason to which I will not get into)
My mum is a strong woman she did a lot for me and I mean a lot (I realize this more so now then when I was younger)
Out of my 3 older sisters only one now speaks to him, in the last 7 yrs he managed to push 2 of them away my oldest sis is still hanging on to him....why???.
When growing up all I remember is being afraid of him somewhat, why I don't know but I was. Maybe I will post more on this one day but I can say he never beat us yes I have had spankings but never beatings.
children...they...we...are so innocent, yet so affected.
Hmmmmm.
They are divorced...and when he divorced her he divorced me too, walked away washed his hands of me. I feel like he left me because I chose to live with my mum, my 3 sisters stayed with him (I was 9yrs old) (yes I know the reason to which I will not get into)
My mum is a strong woman she did a lot for me and I mean a lot (I realize this more so now then when I was younger)
Out of my 3 older sisters only one now speaks to him, in the last 7 yrs he managed to push 2 of them away my oldest sis is still hanging on to him....why???.
When growing up all I remember is being afraid of him somewhat, why I don't know but I was. Maybe I will post more on this one day but I can say he never beat us yes I have had spankings but never beatings.
children...they...we...are so innocent, yet so affected.
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Well it finally happened (m)
Lil O fell down the stairs, DH and I never moved so fast.
I was in his room putting his clothes away dh was on the computer on the main floor. Lil O was upstairs with me. He kept walking to the stairs and laughing then he started to take his toy bus to the stairs he wanted to push it down the stairs, well instead of the bus just going he went with it. I heard the thump and I ran and he was hanging onto the step (he fell half way before he held on for life) He is fine all our hearts are beating just a bit faster at the moment..lol
I was in his room putting his clothes away dh was on the computer on the main floor. Lil O was upstairs with me. He kept walking to the stairs and laughing then he started to take his toy bus to the stairs he wanted to push it down the stairs, well instead of the bus just going he went with it. I heard the thump and I ran and he was hanging onto the step (he fell half way before he held on for life) He is fine all our hearts are beating just a bit faster at the moment..lol
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Bragging rights here.... GUESS what we own....
our HOUSE is OURS! not the banks not anyone's but ours, as of this past Friday the papers were signed the house is ours...no more house payments.. 
DH is all smiles he/we did it in 6yrs. Who new a Massage Therapist and a SAHM could pay off a house..lol
We were thinking another 7 more years but with the help of our 2 rental properties and a wonderful accountant (who showed us how).
DH is all smiles he/we did it in 6yrs. Who new a Massage Therapist and a SAHM could pay off a house..lol
We were thinking another 7 more years but with the help of our 2 rental properties and a wonderful accountant (who showed us how).
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Premonitions
- A presentiment of the future; a foreboding.
- A warning in advance; a forewarning.
1st was of Ri falling from someones hands....... fast forward 24hrs to DH holding Ri last night he stood up and then Ri did a twitch and wiggled from DH's hands and Dh lost his hold on him and all I can say is thank g*d the couch is soft and was near, Ri is fine dh and my hearts are not.
2nd was today of Lil O, he was playing and I was sitting down and then it hit a vision of him falling on his head and his neck was all twisted...... would you not know it that 45minutes later I am feeding Ri and Lil O was playing on the couch and off he goes head 1st his little head bent totally to the side that it streached his neck then he fell onto his back into his toys, once againg my heart stopped and Lil O is fine he had a crying fit but all is fine.
sometimes you just have to pay attention to those little warnings in your head.......
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Monday, May 28, 2007
Tackle it Tuesday...
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Well I did it, I finally tided up the front yard garden pulled some well lots of weeds clipped off the dead part of my lilies. I forgot to take a before pick but I am got to it because I am going to the flower store (Sunnyside) to get more perennials to plant up front tomorrow(I will take a pic tomorrow)
Both boys were napping so I took advantage of it.
Well I did it, I finally tided up the front yard garden pulled some well lots of weeds clipped off the dead part of my lilies. I forgot to take a before pick but I am got to it because I am going to the flower store (Sunnyside) to get more perennials to plant up front tomorrow(I will take a pic tomorrow)
Both boys were napping so I took advantage of it.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Ri needle update
2 month needle
The appointment was for 12:50pm. Dh took an hour off work to watch Lil O so I did not have to bring both boys with me (plus Lil O would of probably freaked, thinking he was back for another poke) .
Ri now weighs ~ 3.78kg (8lbs 5.5oz) he was 4lbs 2.2oz at birth
Height ~ 52cm (20.5inc) he was 16.5 inches at birth
Head Circum ~ 37.5cm
He is almost at the 50% for his adjusted age.
He was not to happy that he had to get naked, and just before I took the diaper off he left a gift...lol
They weighed and measured him. I asked the nurse to look at his head because I thought that the one side was looking "flat" she said that it was just a bit and then asked me about his tummy time. Well tummy time is a bit hard with big bro running around and everytime I lay Ri on the floor Lil O wants to jump around his little bro's head if not that he throws his toys on Ri to play with or he wants to hug and kiss yank and pull. So the tummy time Ri gets is in his bassinette which I think he is tired of. The nurse said the head does not start to form hard till about 4months, I guess I need to really give him more tummy time no matter what.
The Nurse then pulled out the needles had me hold Ri in my lap facing out towards her and she took his skinny leg in her hand and squeezed it to be able to get the needles in (I am still amazed at how long they are) well he did scream and cry out for all three shots then as I went to cuddle him to me he queited right down and looked up at the wind chime she had, she was impressed witht that and said most 2m old do not notice the chime. We went and sat in the waiting area for the 15min waiting period after the needle. There was another mom there having here baby girl weighed and she was 15lbs (I thought she was about 4m old) well the mom commented on Ri and asked his age then I asked her about her DD and well her DD was 2m old aswell at 15lbs! Wow. She laughed and said she makes chunky monkeys.
Ri has been sleep pretty much of the time since we came home. So looks like he may take after his brother.... I hope.
The appointment was for 12:50pm. Dh took an hour off work to watch Lil O so I did not have to bring both boys with me (plus Lil O would of probably freaked, thinking he was back for another poke) .
Ri now weighs ~ 3.78kg (8lbs 5.5oz) he was 4lbs 2.2oz at birth
Height ~ 52cm (20.5inc) he was 16.5 inches at birth
Head Circum ~ 37.5cm
He is almost at the 50% for his adjusted age.
He was not to happy that he had to get naked, and just before I took the diaper off he left a gift...lol
They weighed and measured him. I asked the nurse to look at his head because I thought that the one side was looking "flat" she said that it was just a bit and then asked me about his tummy time. Well tummy time is a bit hard with big bro running around and everytime I lay Ri on the floor Lil O wants to jump around his little bro's head if not that he throws his toys on Ri to play with or he wants to hug and kiss yank and pull. So the tummy time Ri gets is in his bassinette which I think he is tired of. The nurse said the head does not start to form hard till about 4months, I guess I need to really give him more tummy time no matter what.
The Nurse then pulled out the needles had me hold Ri in my lap facing out towards her and she took his skinny leg in her hand and squeezed it to be able to get the needles in (I am still amazed at how long they are) well he did scream and cry out for all three shots then as I went to cuddle him to me he queited right down and looked up at the wind chime she had, she was impressed witht that and said most 2m old do not notice the chime. We went and sat in the waiting area for the 15min waiting period after the needle. There was another mom there having here baby girl weighed and she was 15lbs (I thought she was about 4m old) well the mom commented on Ri and asked his age then I asked her about her DD and well her DD was 2m old aswell at 15lbs! Wow. She laughed and said she makes chunky monkeys.
Ri has been sleep pretty much of the time since we came home. So looks like he may take after his brother.... I hope.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
2 months old
ALREADY!
He is grown so fast, it seems faster then what Lil O grew. Ri goes for his 2month check up and 1st round of needles on May 25 (should be fun) I look at him and I am still yet amazed once again that I have another perfect healthy son... I am blessed.
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Orion update:
What a little boy he is turning into. Talking more along with signing the words, I am so amazed at how fast he has been picking up on signing.
He signs and says;
Eat, milk, car, bus, shoes, ball, cat, dog, thank you, please, sleep, baby, more.... I know there is more he signs but I can't seem to think of them at the moment. I am trying to get videos of him signing as well.
He also seems to have a shoe fetish lately (I have a photo somewhere I will post later)
Orion will be intruduced to the potty this week
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I seem to be falling behind on the photo department of Ri and then some, I need to organize myself better. I start one thing and then tend to wander off on to another without finishing the last then I end up with too many things on the go, which drives me crazy. Which leads me to join a group of bloggers called Tackle it Tuesdays, where I have to tackle one thing on a Tuesday I have to post a pic of the before and then a pic of it done.
I also joined a photo site called Photo Hunters, yes I seem to be adding more to my list of things..lol
Things I need to tackle:
~ Organize my E-bay selling stuff and move them to the basement.
~ Organize my scrap booking stuff and bring to the main floor (easier access for me so I can actually work on some pages....I hope)
~ Go thru my photos and select one to print (which is too many)
~ Clean out the basement
~ Clean Ri's and O's rooms (go thru there clothes)
~ The yard, pull weeds plant some flowers and what not.... (I am jealous of my neighbours yard... very jealous)
~ Clean the deck
~ Find out where I can dump our old T.V and microwave.
I am sure there is more
Well I need to go and pump... yup still doing that but I have cut down on it, slowly stopping.
He is grown so fast, it seems faster then what Lil O grew. Ri goes for his 2month check up and 1st round of needles on May 25 (should be fun) I look at him and I am still yet amazed once again that I have another perfect healthy son... I am blessed.-----
Orion update:
What a little boy he is turning into. Talking more along with signing the words, I am so amazed at how fast he has been picking up on signing.
He signs and says;
Eat, milk, car, bus, shoes, ball, cat, dog, thank you, please, sleep, baby, more.... I know there is more he signs but I can't seem to think of them at the moment. I am trying to get videos of him signing as well.
He also seems to have a shoe fetish lately (I have a photo somewhere I will post later)
Orion will be intruduced to the potty this week
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I seem to be falling behind on the photo department of Ri and then some, I need to organize myself better. I start one thing and then tend to wander off on to another without finishing the last then I end up with too many things on the go, which drives me crazy. Which leads me to join a group of bloggers called Tackle it Tuesdays, where I have to tackle one thing on a Tuesday I have to post a pic of the before and then a pic of it done.
I also joined a photo site called Photo Hunters, yes I seem to be adding more to my list of things..lol
Things I need to tackle:
~ Organize my E-bay selling stuff and move them to the basement.
~ Organize my scrap booking stuff and bring to the main floor (easier access for me so I can actually work on some pages....I hope)
~ Go thru my photos and select one to print (which is too many)
~ Clean out the basement
~ Clean Ri's and O's rooms (go thru there clothes)
~ The yard, pull weeds plant some flowers and what not.... (I am jealous of my neighbours yard... very jealous)
~ Clean the deck
~ Find out where I can dump our old T.V and microwave.
I am sure there is more
Well I need to go and pump... yup still doing that but I have cut down on it, slowly stopping.
Friday, May 18, 2007
camera action....
Dh bought me a mini Digital camcorder, he gave it to me on mothers day.
backtrack here:
I woke up on Mothers Day not expecting anything from him (he grew up not celebrating these kind of days) I am slowly getting use to it and realizing they are just another day (I will get into that later) so my day was good I get the boys ready to go for dinner to my Sis J house my mum and other sis H are there too and the rest of the family. I get in the door and my sis H takes Orion and disappears I think nothing of it..lol... she and O come around the corner and he is caring a plant, me being clueless was not thinking it was for me (I thought it was for my mum, I am use to giving not receiving) I then said OH this is for me...lol
Dh arrived a bit later and as he was getting O ready for supper dh asked me to go get a bag out of the car because it should not stay outside, I thought nothing of it and went to get the bag. When I opened the trunk of his car there were a couple of bags and I thought to myself great which one so I look in the bags the 1st was a yellow one then I realized a Best Buy bag and then I saw it, the digital camera... my dh made me very happy at that moment because he finally surprised me.
So be for warned that you will be seeing lots of videos in the near future, I have to play with my new toy right?
backtrack here:
I woke up on Mothers Day not expecting anything from him (he grew up not celebrating these kind of days) I am slowly getting use to it and realizing they are just another day (I will get into that later) so my day was good I get the boys ready to go for dinner to my Sis J house my mum and other sis H are there too and the rest of the family. I get in the door and my sis H takes Orion and disappears I think nothing of it..lol... she and O come around the corner and he is caring a plant, me being clueless was not thinking it was for me (I thought it was for my mum, I am use to giving not receiving) I then said OH this is for me...lol
Dh arrived a bit later and as he was getting O ready for supper dh asked me to go get a bag out of the car because it should not stay outside, I thought nothing of it and went to get the bag. When I opened the trunk of his car there were a couple of bags and I thought to myself great which one so I look in the bags the 1st was a yellow one then I realized a Best Buy bag and then I saw it, the digital camera... my dh made me very happy at that moment because he finally surprised me.
So be for warned that you will be seeing lots of videos in the near future, I have to play with my new toy right?
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Ah if only I
could sleep like that.
click on pic to see the video
click on pic to see the video Well I kind of did tonight, we had some friends over (D,S, & C) and watched Spiderman 3 well they did I was out like a light I did not even hear them leave, dh laughed at me when I woke..lol
guess I am tired.
Friday, May 11, 2007
Photo Hunters... Five
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Still struggling to keep
pumping or not. I feel so guilty when I think about stopping. It is just so draining (no pun intended) I feel guilty because I was able to pump for lil O for almost 6 months, and feel guilty because Like a fellow Bogger (citygirltales) says "I love giving my baby breastmilk. But I hate what I have to do to get it. I will probably always regret that I have to give her formula, but I won't regret no longer having to be chained to the pump for hours a day, or having to listen to or see her squealing happily alone on her playmat while I sit three feet away bonding with a pair of plastic cones"
I hate how it takes away my time from my babies and I hate having to stop in the middle of things to pump, time my day outs around pumping, I practacly fall asleep at the table while I pump. And with summer coming I do not want to be attached to something when I should be outside playing with my boy(s).
Just how much longer should I continue on with it it the question.
I will admit that I feel like my dh would think differently of me for stopping (that is just me thinking that) which is wrong because he says whatever I want to do is fine with him, Ri has already got the best part of the breastmilk and the formula is not so bad now.
I hate how it takes away my time from my babies and I hate having to stop in the middle of things to pump, time my day outs around pumping, I practacly fall asleep at the table while I pump. And with summer coming I do not want to be attached to something when I should be outside playing with my boy(s).
Just how much longer should I continue on with it it the question.
I will admit that I feel like my dh would think differently of me for stopping (that is just me thinking that) which is wrong because he says whatever I want to do is fine with him, Ri has already got the best part of the breastmilk and the formula is not so bad now.
Saturday, May 05, 2007
If only I had my
Camera on me, because you had to be there to see it.
I took Lil O for his second Flu shot on Apr 30th and well it was like he new what was coming.
I was caring Ri and Lil O was walking next to me and as the Nurse walked around the corner Lil O grabbed my leg and started saying Noo no nooo. I said it is ok come with mommy and as we followed the nurse to her room Lil O was still saying Noo no nooooo, we get into the room I sit him on my lap and when the nurse said hi to him he started to cry and cling on to me (I was feeling bad at this point) so I hugged him close while he started to cry NO NOOO no. The nurse bought out the needle and Lil O got a bit of a glimpse of it and well he turned and was trying to climb me or he was trying to crawl into me. I had to hold his arms down and the Nurse also held his left arm down ( I too was a bit amazed at how long the needle itself was) I watched her put it in and it bent some (must be a flexible needle) and then it was over Lil O was not impressed..lol.
(This is where the camera would of been nice to have) When we were walking out of the room into the waiting area Lil O was holding his arm walking with his head down somewhat and whispering see sniffle see sniffle see sniffle sniffle The others in the waiting area looked at him and I even felt the sympathy from them for him..lol.
All was forgotten later on in the day.
I took Lil O for his second Flu shot on Apr 30th and well it was like he new what was coming.
I was caring Ri and Lil O was walking next to me and as the Nurse walked around the corner Lil O grabbed my leg and started saying Noo no nooo. I said it is ok come with mommy and as we followed the nurse to her room Lil O was still saying Noo no nooooo, we get into the room I sit him on my lap and when the nurse said hi to him he started to cry and cling on to me (I was feeling bad at this point) so I hugged him close while he started to cry NO NOOO no. The nurse bought out the needle and Lil O got a bit of a glimpse of it and well he turned and was trying to climb me or he was trying to crawl into me. I had to hold his arms down and the Nurse also held his left arm down ( I too was a bit amazed at how long the needle itself was) I watched her put it in and it bent some (must be a flexible needle) and then it was over Lil O was not impressed..lol.
(This is where the camera would of been nice to have) When we were walking out of the room into the waiting area Lil O was holding his arm walking with his head down somewhat and whispering see sniffle see sniffle see sniffle sniffle The others in the waiting area looked at him and I even felt the sympathy from them for him..lol.
All was forgotten later on in the day.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Real Mothers
I have been tagged by Annie
Real Mothers
Have a smile for there child when they wake you at 3am,
have a lending hand when needed,
they let you grow and explore,
her heart swells with love and pride as she watches her child play
Write Your Own Version of "Real Mothers"
Tag:
lynanne
Stephanie
Tammy
Real Mothers
Have a smile for there child when they wake you at 3am,
have a lending hand when needed,they let you grow and explore,
her heart swells with love and pride as she watches her child play
Real Mothers don't eat quiche; they don't have time to make it.
Real Mothers know that their kitchen utensils are probably in the sandbox.
Real Mothers often have sticky floors, filthy ovens and happy kids.
Real Mothers know that dried playdough doesn't come out of shag carpet.
Real Mothers sometimes ask "why me?" and get their answer when a little voice says, "because I love you best."
Real Mothers know that a child's growth is not measured by height or years or grade. . .
It is marked by the progression of Mama to Mommy to Mother.
Write Your Own Version of "Real Mothers"
Tag:
lynanne
Stephanie
Tammy
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Went to the Zoo
the other day It was interesting with two kids this time around, I could not just run around with Orion like I did Last year. I felt bad it felt like my boy was being gipped. I am thinking next time I go I will leave Rilon with either his Gramma or auntie so Lil O and I can explore.
Ofcourse I brought my camera, this is a shot thru the fence, my attempt was to have the fence out of focus that you can barely see it.
Ofcourse I brought my camera, this is a shot thru the fence, my attempt was to have the fence out of focus that you can barely see it.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Don't hate me but
I now fit into my "normal" Jeans (well last week I did)
My tummy is just a bit loose still, I will work on that over the summer (only to get pg again...lol)
Monday, April 23, 2007
From Breastfeeding & pumping to just
pumping. I think I am just used to pumping, breastfeeding seems more of a hassle for me (yes odd I know). Because when pumping I have to do it every 3hrs (120min total in a day or 6 20 minute pumps)
When I breastfeed Rilon he can take over an hour and I still have to give him more from the bottle. So to me why should I sit an hour + if I can give him a bottle in 15min and he is full and happy not frustrated because he still wants more, then pump for 20min,yup pumping it is. He is still getting breastmilk no need to feel guilty about it right but yet I do but I also felt guilty breastfeed because it took that time away from Orion too. You know I have come to narrow it down that feeling guilty is part of being a mommy (a big part).
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Here is a pic of my boys when the were just a week old:
Orion
Rilon
When I breastfeed Rilon he can take over an hour and I still have to give him more from the bottle. So to me why should I sit an hour + if I can give him a bottle in 15min and he is full and happy not frustrated because he still wants more, then pump for 20min,yup pumping it is. He is still getting breastmilk no need to feel guilty about it right but yet I do but I also felt guilty breastfeed because it took that time away from Orion too. You know I have come to narrow it down that feeling guilty is part of being a mommy (a big part).
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Here is a pic of my boys when the were just a week old:
Orion
Rilon
Friday, April 20, 2007
Childhood memories???
As I sit pumping my breast milk for Rilon, Orion is sitting and looking at me with these 2 things attached to my breasts and for some reason today as I stare at my son staring at me I began to wonder "will he remember this vision of me" god I hope not...lol
When I start pumping Orion comes running making the milk sign with his hand and says ilk then he stops and stares or sits beside me in his highchair and he sways to the swooshing sound it makes. He will look at me and giggle. Sometimes it even makes him fall asleep.... swoosh swoosh swoosh.... I even get sleepy.
Here is my "milking" station at home, right now it is my most intimate friend.
Part of my storage of milk (that is not even half of it, there is lots more in the deep freezer in the basement..
When I start pumping Orion comes running making the milk sign with his hand and says ilk then he stops and stares or sits beside me in his highchair and he sways to the swooshing sound it makes. He will look at me and giggle. Sometimes it even makes him fall asleep.... swoosh swoosh swoosh.... I even get sleepy.
Here is my "milking" station at home, right now it is my most intimate friend.
Part of my storage of milk (that is not even half of it, there is lots more in the deep freezer in the basement..
CANCELLED
Whooo Hoooo!
Jury selection was cancelled for today, not postponed it was cancelled. I so did not want to go. The weather is crappy here today and I did not want to drive in it and bring Rilon out in it either.
doing the happy dance.
Jury selection was cancelled for today, not postponed it was cancelled. I so did not want to go. The weather is crappy here today and I did not want to drive in it and bring Rilon out in it either.
doing the happy dance.
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Eyeing each other up.
or as a friend posted, "Holy crap! Would you look at the size of that kid!"
Orion was wonder who and why was this kid in his chair, little does he know that it is time to learn to share, so far he is doing good as soon as Rilon is out of the chair Orion is right in it..lol
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Had my 1st heart stopper the other day:
A friend has lent me her baby bassinet and I had it over behind the single chair (note HAD) I stepped away for a quick second and when I came back around the corner I saw that Orion climb up the chair and made his way into the bassinet, he was standing there smiling and waving and saying see see. My heart stopped and I quickly made my way to get him out of there and hoping that he did not harm Rilon in his adventure, I lifted him out and told him that was a no no, his response was to look up at me with those big brown eyes and say no no with a smile. Somehow he manage to not step on Rilon (I would of loved to have been a fly on the wall to see how he did it) since he was still sleeping soundly. Bassinet is now moved from any climbing objects.
Orion was wonder who and why was this kid in his chair, little does he know that it is time to learn to share, so far he is doing good as soon as Rilon is out of the chair Orion is right in it..lol---
Had my 1st heart stopper the other day:
A friend has lent me her baby bassinet and I had it over behind the single chair (note HAD) I stepped away for a quick second and when I came back around the corner I saw that Orion climb up the chair and made his way into the bassinet, he was standing there smiling and waving and saying see see. My heart stopped and I quickly made my way to get him out of there and hoping that he did not harm Rilon in his adventure, I lifted him out and told him that was a no no, his response was to look up at me with those big brown eyes and say no no with a smile. Somehow he manage to not step on Rilon (I would of loved to have been a fly on the wall to see how he did it) since he was still sleeping soundly. Bassinet is now moved from any climbing objects.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
1 month old today
Where did it go?
Well I am going to carry the tradition on and take a photo of him with Mr. Ruffus. This is a stuffed puppy a good friend gave to him (She "M" also is the one that gave Orion his Mr Monkey to take his monthly pic with)
he is Rilon at 1 month old:
he is now eating 70ml of breast milk when I do give him the bottle, he is still not so great on the breast.
Well I am going to carry the tradition on and take a photo of him with Mr. Ruffus. This is a stuffed puppy a good friend gave to him (She "M" also is the one that gave Orion his Mr Monkey to take his monthly pic with)
he is Rilon at 1 month old:
he is now eating 70ml of breast milk when I do give him the bottle, he is still not so great on the breast.
Monday, April 16, 2007
What's next!
When I arrived home from Regina in the mail box waiting for me was a letter, Juror Summons.
I am to apear before the courts for jury section on Friday the 20th. I sent an application to be excused from Jury due to that I just had a baby a premature one at that and I am only breastfeeding him. Well I got a call back from them today and they tell me I still have to go to court, hope they don't mind me bringing Rilon (still debating on taking Orion with too) and I will breastfeed him in front of them all if I have to (did I mention I have to use a breast sheild too) I am so upset by this and I just know I will cry infront of the Judge. If they make me do this knowing my situation I have a strong urge to call the media and explain all that has happen since I have had my baby.
I do not think it is right of them to expect me to stop breastfeeding my infant son if they decide to choose me for Jury there are many other people in this city (1millon + in fact ) that they can choose from.
I am to apear before the courts for jury section on Friday the 20th. I sent an application to be excused from Jury due to that I just had a baby a premature one at that and I am only breastfeeding him. Well I got a call back from them today and they tell me I still have to go to court, hope they don't mind me bringing Rilon (still debating on taking Orion with too) and I will breastfeed him in front of them all if I have to (did I mention I have to use a breast sheild too) I am so upset by this and I just know I will cry infront of the Judge. If they make me do this knowing my situation I have a strong urge to call the media and explain all that has happen since I have had my baby.
I do not think it is right of them to expect me to stop breastfeeding my infant son if they decide to choose me for Jury there are many other people in this city (1millon + in fact ) that they can choose from.
Orion 18m update
Ok yes he is 19months now, DH took Orion to the Appointments because I was in Regina.
His original appointment was on March 20 (we all know what I was doing that day).
DH took Orion to the Health clinic for his 18m needle and weight check (little did dh know he was getting a needle too..lol for the flu) He called in when I was in Regina and asked about what needle Orion gets, I said his card should be in the bag. He then asked about the flu shot if Orion should get it or not since it is near the end of flu season. I said tell the nurse that we just had another baby and that he is a preemie, I heard him telling the nurse this and then I heard her say on then yes he should and you to dad. Dh was like Oh ok then I guess I am getting a needle today...lol
Orion's weight was 22lbs, for some reason I thought he was heavier then that.
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Orion is signing milk & eat now and almost signs water. I have 2 signing time CD's for him to watch but I can find one. He say no no, kitty, doggie, up, down, see see, light, milk, Whoa and yeah.
He is still easy to put to bed for naps and night night, love getting his teeth brushed.
What he loves at the moment:
to climb everything and I mean everything and he is fast too..lol
The pink flamigo commercial for Telus (well all the telus commecials)
His original appointment was on March 20 (we all know what I was doing that day).
DH took Orion to the Health clinic for his 18m needle and weight check (little did dh know he was getting a needle too..lol for the flu) He called in when I was in Regina and asked about what needle Orion gets, I said his card should be in the bag. He then asked about the flu shot if Orion should get it or not since it is near the end of flu season. I said tell the nurse that we just had another baby and that he is a preemie, I heard him telling the nurse this and then I heard her say on then yes he should and you to dad. Dh was like Oh ok then I guess I am getting a needle today...lol
Orion's weight was 22lbs, for some reason I thought he was heavier then that.
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Orion is signing milk & eat now and almost signs water. I have 2 signing time CD's for him to watch but I can find one. He say no no, kitty, doggie, up, down, see see, light, milk, Whoa and yeah.
He is still easy to put to bed for naps and night night, love getting his teeth brushed.
What he loves at the moment:
to climb everything and I mean everything and he is fast too..lol
The pink flamigo commercial for Telus (well all the telus commecials)
Monday, April 09, 2007
My 3 favorite boys
Just think 7yrs of hard work and lots of determination to get to this photo, a family of four now.Never say never.
the quote I always thought of; "In order to achive what you need, you can never give up." Hope by Shaggy.
Nurse visit
Today the nurse came to visit us (Rilon and I) to see how we are doing. She asked all the questions about postpratum and was happy with my answers. Took my blood pressure which was 106/80 she asked it that was normal I said yeah it is usually around 108. She then took Rilons heart rate 158bpm said it was a bit high but sound good, Dr's like to now if it is 160 of higher. His temp was 36.5 normal and his weight 2250kg (4lbs 15oz) tonight he should reach 5lbs. She said I make good milk...lol
Updated posts:
March 24 1st Day in Regina
March 25 Healthy Boy
Updated posts:
March 24 1st Day in Regina
March 25 Healthy Boy
Friday, April 06, 2007
He is home
My tiny little guy is home.
His weight leaving the hospital was 2115 (4.7lbs) .
I got to the Hospital at 2pm and the nurse came we went over his charts and tags (to make sure he was mine) then the Dr H came to chat with me she asked me about the ASA (asprin) and the IVIG wanted to know why they had me take them, I explained it all. She then said I have a very healthy little guy and that he is a sweet boy.
Rilon and I left the Hospital around 5pm (in rush hour) When we got home Orion was somewhat curious of this new little creature invading his space...lol He was very gental with him, then went about with is day.
His weight leaving the hospital was 2115 (4.7lbs) .
I got to the Hospital at 2pm and the nurse came we went over his charts and tags (to make sure he was mine) then the Dr H came to chat with me she asked me about the ASA (asprin) and the IVIG wanted to know why they had me take them, I explained it all. She then said I have a very healthy little guy and that he is a sweet boy.
Rilon and I left the Hospital around 5pm (in rush hour) When we got home Orion was somewhat curious of this new little creature invading his space...lol He was very gental with him, then went about with is day.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
1st night
Wow I almost forgot how tiring it can be. I think my body has finally come down from its adrenalin rush because I am pooped.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Guess who is coming HOME!
Rilon, Rilon is coming home today!
When I went in yesterday the nurse said to leave all his monitors attached to him because they are checking everything to make sure he is good to go home tomorrow (which is today). I had a big smile on my face. They also came by to do the hearing test on him but they came right at his next feeding time so I took the test a bit longer because his sucking on his soother interfeard some, he passed the test.
This morning I have to put his carseat in the car. I fixed up his cradle that is in my room, diapers are bought, his clothes are all washed. Just waiting for auntie J to come over and watch Orion.
Orion either is getting a cold or it is a reaction to the needles he got a week and a half ago. He is sneezing non stop and his nose is runny.
When I went in yesterday the nurse said to leave all his monitors attached to him because they are checking everything to make sure he is good to go home tomorrow (which is today). I had a big smile on my face. They also came by to do the hearing test on him but they came right at his next feeding time so I took the test a bit longer because his sucking on his soother interfeard some, he passed the test.
This morning I have to put his carseat in the car. I fixed up his cradle that is in my room, diapers are bought, his clothes are all washed. Just waiting for auntie J to come over and watch Orion.
Orion either is getting a cold or it is a reaction to the needles he got a week and a half ago. He is sneezing non stop and his nose is runny.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Back dated posts
Birth Story
March 22: Big Bro meets lil bro and off we go
March 23: The dam breaks
more to follow....soon
March 22: Big Bro meets lil bro and off we go
March 23: The dam breaks
more to follow....soon
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Birth story
As you know my water broke in the wee hours of March 20 at 4:10am...
I woke to my water breaking, it was just enough that I knew something was up. I got up to go to the washroom and it was clear fluid. I did not want to wake DH yet just in case it was not my water (you never know right... or call it denial..lol) I went and laid back down but 1st I put down a draw sheet..lol. 15min later it happened again back to the washroom I go, still clear fluid. Went a laid down again looked at the time it was 4:30am I did not want to wake anyone just yet thought I'd wait till 5am. A few minutes later more water came out much more this time so I figured I should let dh know what was going on (he has been sleeping in the spare room because I have started to snore and I am pretty restless while sleeping) When I woke him his response was "your having a baby" in a really sleepy voice i was not sure if he understood what was happening..lol. I told him to sleep a bit longer I'd wake him when J gets here. i go down to the main floor and make a mad dash to the bathroom yet again. I call J on her cell (she said it would be on at all times ) and it went to the answering machine, I laughed in the message and said I hope you answer your home phone. She answered her home phone pretty quick and said you want me to come over (no hello..lol, later she told me her dh woke to the ring of the phone and said Y is having the baby and went back to sleep..lol)
J arrived about an 1/2 hr later time was now a little past 6am. Dh woke and we left for the Hospital, we arrived at 7am. We went up to the L/D floor I told the nurse at the desk that my water broke and I am 33w 3d pg, I was then taken in to the Pre-labour room hooked up to the machines to follow Rilon's hb and my contractions if and when they started. Now we had to wait for the Dr to arrive. dr finally arrived and asked all the questions...blah blah blah... She the checked to make sure it was my water for sure and when she inserted the thing (whatever it is called) more water came out and she said no need for me to check more that is your water that broke you are here to stay. I was then hooked up to an IV with some antibiotics to fight infection off since my water broke and no contractions as of yet. Once again they did not want me to go into labor.
I was now admitted, mum an B arrived and shortly after my sis H did too. H then asked mum if she could go into the delivery room this time instead of her. I could see mum was a bit taken back by that and I knew she really wanted to be in there but being the mum that she is she told H you can but you better take some good pics.
The NICU Dr R came to see me and explain and go over a few things about having a preemie, when I saw him I said I remember you, when you did your rounds you saw my son. He then said oh so I guess you have been there and done that..lol Then call this a re-fresher. He came back a few time to just check on me. Nurse came in to get me and move me to a labor room (I think it was the same room I had Orion in) The delivery Dr came back and checked my cervix it was 2cm this was at 2pm. She then came back around 5pm and checked again it was only 3cm, I was a bit disappointed and thought what only 3.
My contractions were starting to come every 2 to 10 min apart, which was frustrating. It was when I finally sat on the birthing ball that they started to become regular and hurt more they were 3 to 4min apart. As I am bouncing and rocking on the ball I could here dh and my mum playing a game on his phone. H was rubbing my back. She and dh would switch. Around 9pm my nurse came in to see me and saw that my contractions were intense so she went to see if she could find the Dr to check me, when the nurse came back she said that she saw they planned on coming to check me at 10pm, I then had another contraction the nurse then said I think I need to check you myself now(9:30pm). When she did I was at 8cm, she left to find the Dr, NICU team and the epidural guy when she came back she said they were already in with another delivery.... I moaned and said so I guess no epidural for me...lucky me as another contraction took a hold of me. Nurse left the room to check on other patients.
My contractions were came faster and harder now and then I had the huge urge to push when I told Dh this he ran for the nurse she came running in saying that is a good thing to come and get me, said the NICU team was still in the other delivery. Nurse checked my cervix again and said you are there your 10cm I need to find some Dr's. She came back with a Dr for me and 2 others for Rilon. By this time I was squeezing H's hand and arm so hard I was in so much pain dh was rubbing my back. The dr and the nurse were telling me not to push yet ( I was wanting to scream and say you try not to push when he is fighting his way down and out)The nurse then came and took over from H and was talking me thru my contractions telling me to breathe thru the pain ( I was ready to crawl off the bed and climb the walls to try and get out of there but I new the pain would follow) DH thought I was going to fall off the bed by the way I was panting & wiggling about. They then had me on my back dh and the nurse both had a leg I was squeezing both of there hands the dr was finally telling me to push,by this time my eyes were so heavy I could not keep them open, Rilon's head was right there they held the mirror up for me to see but I just could not keep my eyes open to watch. I believe 4 pushes later his head was out and wiggling around and again Dr was telling me not to push (what...OMG! was she kidding, almost impossible) but I fought hard not to and I mean fought hard.
I then heard the Dr say get a towel for mom as soon as the towel was on my belly Dr said gentle pushes and then he was out and cry that beautiful sound (11:24pm) What a sight to see my new son.
He cried a few time when the Dr's were checking him over. Once again I had to remind my family to go take photos of him...lol. Mum and H were both able to stay and watch the delivery, I guess when things started to happen and with now NICU team they forgot that they were in the room. They nurse brought Rilon over to me and placed him in my arms, I was having a hard time keeping my eyes open to look at him. Dh came over and was checking Rilon out too, I started to feel very tired my eyes were so droopy that I said to Dh to take Rilon from my arms because I can not stay awake. I remember Dh taking him and I remember seeing Dh in the corner holding Rilon up to his face and smiling then my eyes closed. I heard the Drs say lets take him to the NICU you all can come if you want then the room was quiet. My nurses shift was over she said she was glad I delivered because she would not be able to sleep.
The new shift nurse came in and brought me some toast to eat, I was so hungry and so tired that I was falling asleep eating. I just gave up eating and closed my eyes and that is when Dh my mum and sis came back (I just was not going to get sleep...lol) The nurse then got a wheelchair for me and wheel me to meet my son. Once again I remember sitting at Rilons bedside fighting to keep my eyes open. Once I was in my room and everyone left I was out like a light.
I never did get Rilon's Apgar score. I also did not need any stitches I only ended up with one teeny tiny tear.
I woke to my water breaking, it was just enough that I knew something was up. I got up to go to the washroom and it was clear fluid. I did not want to wake DH yet just in case it was not my water (you never know right... or call it denial..lol) I went and laid back down but 1st I put down a draw sheet..lol. 15min later it happened again back to the washroom I go, still clear fluid. Went a laid down again looked at the time it was 4:30am I did not want to wake anyone just yet thought I'd wait till 5am. A few minutes later more water came out much more this time so I figured I should let dh know what was going on (he has been sleeping in the spare room because I have started to snore and I am pretty restless while sleeping) When I woke him his response was "your having a baby" in a really sleepy voice i was not sure if he understood what was happening..lol. I told him to sleep a bit longer I'd wake him when J gets here. i go down to the main floor and make a mad dash to the bathroom yet again. I call J on her cell (she said it would be on at all times ) and it went to the answering machine, I laughed in the message and said I hope you answer your home phone. She answered her home phone pretty quick and said you want me to come over (no hello..lol, later she told me her dh woke to the ring of the phone and said Y is having the baby and went back to sleep..lol)
J arrived about an 1/2 hr later time was now a little past 6am. Dh woke and we left for the Hospital, we arrived at 7am. We went up to the L/D floor I told the nurse at the desk that my water broke and I am 33w 3d pg, I was then taken in to the Pre-labour room hooked up to the machines to follow Rilon's hb and my contractions if and when they started. Now we had to wait for the Dr to arrive. dr finally arrived and asked all the questions...blah blah blah... She the checked to make sure it was my water for sure and when she inserted the thing (whatever it is called) more water came out and she said no need for me to check more that is your water that broke you are here to stay. I was then hooked up to an IV with some antibiotics to fight infection off since my water broke and no contractions as of yet. Once again they did not want me to go into labor.
I was now admitted, mum an B arrived and shortly after my sis H did too. H then asked mum if she could go into the delivery room this time instead of her. I could see mum was a bit taken back by that and I knew she really wanted to be in there but being the mum that she is she told H you can but you better take some good pics.
The NICU Dr R came to see me and explain and go over a few things about having a preemie, when I saw him I said I remember you, when you did your rounds you saw my son. He then said oh so I guess you have been there and done that..lol Then call this a re-fresher. He came back a few time to just check on me. Nurse came in to get me and move me to a labor room (I think it was the same room I had Orion in) The delivery Dr came back and checked my cervix it was 2cm this was at 2pm. She then came back around 5pm and checked again it was only 3cm, I was a bit disappointed and thought what only 3.
My contractions were starting to come every 2 to 10 min apart, which was frustrating. It was when I finally sat on the birthing ball that they started to become regular and hurt more they were 3 to 4min apart. As I am bouncing and rocking on the ball I could here dh and my mum playing a game on his phone. H was rubbing my back. She and dh would switch. Around 9pm my nurse came in to see me and saw that my contractions were intense so she went to see if she could find the Dr to check me, when the nurse came back she said that she saw they planned on coming to check me at 10pm, I then had another contraction the nurse then said I think I need to check you myself now(9:30pm). When she did I was at 8cm, she left to find the Dr, NICU team and the epidural guy when she came back she said they were already in with another delivery.... I moaned and said so I guess no epidural for me...lucky me as another contraction took a hold of me. Nurse left the room to check on other patients.
My contractions were came faster and harder now and then I had the huge urge to push when I told Dh this he ran for the nurse she came running in saying that is a good thing to come and get me, said the NICU team was still in the other delivery. Nurse checked my cervix again and said you are there your 10cm I need to find some Dr's. She came back with a Dr for me and 2 others for Rilon. By this time I was squeezing H's hand and arm so hard I was in so much pain dh was rubbing my back. The dr and the nurse were telling me not to push yet ( I was wanting to scream and say you try not to push when he is fighting his way down and out)The nurse then came and took over from H and was talking me thru my contractions telling me to breathe thru the pain ( I was ready to crawl off the bed and climb the walls to try and get out of there but I new the pain would follow) DH thought I was going to fall off the bed by the way I was panting & wiggling about. They then had me on my back dh and the nurse both had a leg I was squeezing both of there hands the dr was finally telling me to push,by this time my eyes were so heavy I could not keep them open, Rilon's head was right there they held the mirror up for me to see but I just could not keep my eyes open to watch. I believe 4 pushes later his head was out and wiggling around and again Dr was telling me not to push (what...OMG! was she kidding, almost impossible) but I fought hard not to and I mean fought hard.
I then heard the Dr say get a towel for mom as soon as the towel was on my belly Dr said gentle pushes and then he was out and cry that beautiful sound (11:24pm) What a sight to see my new son.
He cried a few time when the Dr's were checking him over. Once again I had to remind my family to go take photos of him...lol. Mum and H were both able to stay and watch the delivery, I guess when things started to happen and with now NICU team they forgot that they were in the room. They nurse brought Rilon over to me and placed him in my arms, I was having a hard time keeping my eyes open to look at him. Dh came over and was checking Rilon out too, I started to feel very tired my eyes were so droopy that I said to Dh to take Rilon from my arms because I can not stay awake. I remember Dh taking him and I remember seeing Dh in the corner holding Rilon up to his face and smiling then my eyes closed. I heard the Drs say lets take him to the NICU you all can come if you want then the room was quiet. My nurses shift was over she said she was glad I delivered because she would not be able to sleep.
The new shift nurse came in and brought me some toast to eat, I was so hungry and so tired that I was falling asleep eating. I just gave up eating and closed my eyes and that is when Dh my mum and sis came back (I just was not going to get sleep...lol) The nurse then got a wheelchair for me and wheel me to meet my son. Once again I remember sitting at Rilons bedside fighting to keep my eyes open. Once I was in my room and everyone left I was out like a light.
I never did get Rilon's Apgar score. I also did not need any stitches I only ended up with one teeny tiny tear.
Home sweet home....
We are back home, got here 2 nights ago late in the evening. Rilon arrived in the afternoon while mum and I had to wait for a 9:40pm flight.
Rilon was taken to another hospital here in the city which is on the other side of town from where we live..lol at least we are back home.
When Rilon arrived the nurse call dh to let him know that he arrived safely alone with my breast milk...lol They said he was quiet hungry when they reached the hospital (they will not feed him on the plane, it was a bit past his feeding time when they arrived at the hosp.)
As of today Rilon has not been gavaged feed for 2.5days he has drank from the bottle or breast fed. He now weights 2015 gram = 4.44lb, lbs ( something is off and it is either the conversions site I use or the hospitals because they say his birth weight was 1960 gram = 4.32 lb, lbs but the pounds they told me was 4.51lbs abd the site I use gave me the other 4.32 hmmm)
Orion did not take strange to me either, he was asleep when dh & I got home so when he woke in the morning I went in to get him like it was just anyother day and all he did was look at me for a moment then put his arms up to me.... my boy looks so big now and how I missed him so.
I will be back dating a few posts about our stay in Regina, so be sure to check back if you want... Photos will be updated aswell (eventually...lol)
Rilon was taken to another hospital here in the city which is on the other side of town from where we live..lol at least we are back home.
When Rilon arrived the nurse call dh to let him know that he arrived safely alone with my breast milk...lol They said he was quiet hungry when they reached the hospital (they will not feed him on the plane, it was a bit past his feeding time when they arrived at the hosp.)
As of today Rilon has not been gavaged feed for 2.5days he has drank from the bottle or breast fed. He now weights 2015 gram = 4.44lb, lbs ( something is off and it is either the conversions site I use or the hospitals because they say his birth weight was 1960 gram = 4.32 lb, lbs but the pounds they told me was 4.51lbs abd the site I use gave me the other 4.32 hmmm)
Orion did not take strange to me either, he was asleep when dh & I got home so when he woke in the morning I went in to get him like it was just anyother day and all he did was look at me for a moment then put his arms up to me.... my boy looks so big now and how I missed him so.
I will be back dating a few posts about our stay in Regina, so be sure to check back if you want... Photos will be updated aswell (eventually...lol)
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Day 4 in Regina
Ri is doing good his weight is now 1955kg (4.5lbs) he did really well on his 7pm feeding, he took approx. 30ml off me, he also peed thu his diaper twice today. Oh the stinky poops he has to, I thought they we not to stink at this stage....somebody lied about that.
I was able to give him a bath tonight. He cried while I was wiping him down then the nurse said lets try him in the tub. I lifted his tiny naked little body and as soon as his butt hit the water he stopped crying and was just looking around as I bathed him. When I took him out he started to cry once again and what a cute little cry he has. I put his clothes on and wrapped him up in his blanket and he was happy again. Gramma had the cuddle session as I had to pump.
When I got back from pumping my mum handed Ri to me so fast that I looked at her stunned. (I was going to let her hold him a bit longer as I hog the boy myself) later she told me that just before I came back she started to feel her nose get all tingly and her eyes watery and that is why she pretty much tossed Ri at me...lol she said the look on my face was priceless.
I was able to give him a bath tonight. He cried while I was wiping him down then the nurse said lets try him in the tub. I lifted his tiny naked little body and as soon as his butt hit the water he stopped crying and was just looking around as I bathed him. When I took him out he started to cry once again and what a cute little cry he has. I put his clothes on and wrapped him up in his blanket and he was happy again. Gramma had the cuddle session as I had to pump.
When I got back from pumping my mum handed Ri to me so fast that I looked at her stunned. (I was going to let her hold him a bit longer as I hog the boy myself) later she told me that just before I came back she started to feel her nose get all tingly and her eyes watery and that is why she pretty much tossed Ri at me...lol she said the look on my face was priceless.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Day 3 in Regina
Went and saw Ri for his 10am feeding he latched on to me and sucked away. After about 30min the Nurse Judy came to weight him (to see approximantly how much he drank from me) she came back saying he only drank about 10mil, I thought he drank more then that from the way he was sucking, he ended up having the rest by gavage. Ri's 1pm fed was by gavage, he was to tired to suck. I got to hold him for most of the afternoon, felt good hugging my little boy. I tired to beastfeed again at his 4pm feeding time, but the nurse had me pump for a few minutes before to get the flow going hoping that would help him get more. Well that did not work he was gavaged the rest of his feed & I finished pumping.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Healthy Boy
Ri got a clean bill of health today. Which ment we could rid ourselves of the gowns, gloves and mask...YEAH. (I kept getting strange looks from other parents) and no more over heating mom and gramma..lol.
I breast feed Ri 3x's today and he did really well. His weight is now 1890kg (4lbs 3oz) he eats 30mil per feed by bottle.
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The food here in the hotel is not the greatest and it is expensive. The Helath region back home it to pay $15.00 for one meal a day (yeah whoopy) one meal in the hotel is $20.00 +. We found the cafiteria in the Hospital which oddley enough was better food and cheaper.
I breast feed Ri 3x's today and he did really well. His weight is now 1890kg (4lbs 3oz) he eats 30mil per feed by bottle.
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The food here in the hotel is not the greatest and it is expensive. The Helath region back home it to pay $15.00 for one meal a day (yeah whoopy) one meal in the hotel is $20.00 +. We found the cafiteria in the Hospital which oddley enough was better food and cheaper.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Day 1 in Regina
Saw Ri today he looks good, what a cute little guy he is.
1st off the hospital is confusing but we found our way got into the NICU (which is a very different set up from home) . Mum and I scrub and the nurse led us to Ri, his little area was cornered off and when I looked in the nurse Sharon was holding him I was kind of taken back of what she was wearing. She had on a Yellow mask, yellow gown and blue gloves. The nurse explained why they had to wear the lovely outfits for now (b/c he came from a different hospital and he was being "quarantined" and tested if anything other then him came, meaning germs. Which is why we had to wear the get up. They had to wait for is tests to come back - )
The Nurse Sharon said Ri had a few bottles and is doing well. He is still a bit Jaundice so he will be put back under the lights. We tried breastfeeding at his 4pm feeding and Ri did very well, I was very impressed because he opened wide and pretty much lunged for my nipple and sucked away (kind of freaked me out at how fast he was). I left the Hospital at 6:30pm for the night, I was pretty tired.
My breasts were starting to get very engorged again, it started on the plan ride to Regina. When we got to the Hospital I mentioned this to the nurse (this was before I tried to breast feed him) she asked if I could breast feed to bring them down, I said they are quite full and tight, but I could try and wait till the 4pm feed. She went on her break and about 10minutes later I was hurting my breast were so hard and uncomfortable that I had to pump, I asked a different nurse to show me the pumping room. She saw how hard and tight I was and when My nurse came back she came to my pumping room with warm clothes to cover my breast with to help the flow and ease my discomfort some. She then brought me some water to drink and more warm clothes, she laughed and said this is when you need more hands, that is when I asked her for some elastic bands. She gave me a funny look but went and got them for me. I then showed her how I go hands free while pumping, she was impressed and went to get another nurse to see...lol
1st off the hospital is confusing but we found our way got into the NICU (which is a very different set up from home) . Mum and I scrub and the nurse led us to Ri, his little area was cornered off and when I looked in the nurse Sharon was holding him I was kind of taken back of what she was wearing. She had on a Yellow mask, yellow gown and blue gloves. The nurse explained why they had to wear the lovely outfits for now (b/c he came from a different hospital and he was being "quarantined" and tested if anything other then him came, meaning germs. Which is why we had to wear the get up. They had to wait for is tests to come back - )
The Nurse Sharon said Ri had a few bottles and is doing well. He is still a bit Jaundice so he will be put back under the lights. We tried breastfeeding at his 4pm feeding and Ri did very well, I was very impressed because he opened wide and pretty much lunged for my nipple and sucked away (kind of freaked me out at how fast he was). I left the Hospital at 6:30pm for the night, I was pretty tired.
My breasts were starting to get very engorged again, it started on the plan ride to Regina. When we got to the Hospital I mentioned this to the nurse (this was before I tried to breast feed him) she asked if I could breast feed to bring them down, I said they are quite full and tight, but I could try and wait till the 4pm feed. She went on her break and about 10minutes later I was hurting my breast were so hard and uncomfortable that I had to pump, I asked a different nurse to show me the pumping room. She saw how hard and tight I was and when My nurse came back she came to my pumping room with warm clothes to cover my breast with to help the flow and ease my discomfort some. She then brought me some water to drink and more warm clothes, she laughed and said this is when you need more hands, that is when I asked her for some elastic bands. She gave me a funny look but went and got them for me. I then showed her how I go hands free while pumping, she was impressed and went to get another nurse to see...lol
Friday, March 23, 2007
The dam breaks
Dh took me to the airport with O and I held my boy up till I had to enter the gate, as we walked closed the the loading gate my eyes filled with tears and the dam broke I could not keep them back I just look at dh and smiled and shrugged my shoulders.
O looked at me wondering what was going on, then changed his attention to other things around him. I finally gave him one last big hug and Dh too and made my way thru the gate with mum, I looked back and waved. Dh waved and was holding O who was just staring at me. I kept walking and when I looked back again I did not see them (thought they left already) . Dh later told me that they were still there and he saw me look back again but at that time someone walk in front of them and blocked my view. I guess O started to freak when he saw me walking further away from him and tried to run after me, dh had to hold him back and I guess Or started to cry and reaching out for me. I did not see or hear any of this which is probably a good thing would of made it that much harder to leave.
O looked at me wondering what was going on, then changed his attention to other things around him. I finally gave him one last big hug and Dh too and made my way thru the gate with mum, I looked back and waved. Dh waved and was holding O who was just staring at me. I kept walking and when I looked back again I did not see them (thought they left already) . Dh later told me that they were still there and he saw me look back again but at that time someone walk in front of them and blocked my view. I guess O started to freak when he saw me walking further away from him and tried to run after me, dh had to hold him back and I guess Or started to cry and reaching out for me. I did not see or hear any of this which is probably a good thing would of made it that much harder to leave.
Ri is now in Regina SK
My mum & I are leaving tonight and should arrive at 11pm, nurse called and said he arrived safely.
Praying for a short stay, I want to be home with my other boy, I feel guilty leaving him and that he will be upset with me for being away from him.... I am torn either way.
thanks again
I hope they have internet so I can update.
Praying for a short stay, I want to be home with my other boy, I feel guilty leaving him and that he will be upset with me for being away from him.... I am torn either way.
thanks again
I hope they have internet so I can update.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Big bro meets little bro and then Off we go
Lil O met his lil brother today. At 1st he'd just look then point and say see see then he'd bang on the incubator and giggle, Ri just laid there. O started to get a bit antsy so Dh and I took him out of the NICU before he started anything.
Dh took him to the waiting room where H was waiting and they played with the toys I went to pump. After pumping I went and put the milk in the fridge and went to take one last look at Ri. A nurse came up to me asking if the manager found me yet, I said no and she said oh well they need to speak with you. (I felt like I was going to the principles office..lol) When she came to talk with me there was another lady with her (I can not remember there names, all a blur) she went on about moving babies around. I new what she was getting at but I was think what Hospital here in the city they were going to send him to, then I heard her say Regina. I ask her if she was kidding. She so no sorry I am not. I stared at her as she went on talking, my eyes started to tear up all I could think about was Ri leaving and me having to leave O. Then I heard her ask if I had any questions, I said I need to get my husband he is in the waiting area. When I went out to get DH I started to cry again and Dh say me and was freaked out, he asked what was wrong is Ri ok, I tried to get out that Ri was ok that they were shipping him out but it did not come out to clear. I just waved for dh to follow me back to Ri's bed where he could speak with the Dr's. After they explained everything again, both Dh and I said we understood why they chose Ri (he was one of the healthier preemies and would handle the flight better then the others) and that it was just hard for me because I had to leave another baby behind to be with Ri and plus I just gave birth 2 days ago and was all hormonal.
I was still crying when we walked out of the NICU and when I saw the other Dr and the look on his face he looked shocked to see me crying, I just looked down walking by him (I thought he new) I guess he was all worried and went to the back and asked if he missed something with baby A that is when he found out, he thought they had the wrong baby. He then came out to talk with DH and I said he was sorry and that I scared him as well when he saw me crying. He said he was surprised that they chose Ri in a way, and that he was the 3rd baby today to be picked to be sent out (one went to Edmonton the other to Montana I got Regina)
They were so send Ri that night but he ended up going the next day (they could not get the plane ready to leave in time) I arrived late that evening.
Dh took him to the waiting room where H was waiting and they played with the toys I went to pump. After pumping I went and put the milk in the fridge and went to take one last look at Ri. A nurse came up to me asking if the manager found me yet, I said no and she said oh well they need to speak with you. (I felt like I was going to the principles office..lol) When she came to talk with me there was another lady with her (I can not remember there names, all a blur) she went on about moving babies around. I new what she was getting at but I was think what Hospital here in the city they were going to send him to, then I heard her say Regina. I ask her if she was kidding. She so no sorry I am not. I stared at her as she went on talking, my eyes started to tear up all I could think about was Ri leaving and me having to leave O. Then I heard her ask if I had any questions, I said I need to get my husband he is in the waiting area. When I went out to get DH I started to cry again and Dh say me and was freaked out, he asked what was wrong is Ri ok, I tried to get out that Ri was ok that they were shipping him out but it did not come out to clear. I just waved for dh to follow me back to Ri's bed where he could speak with the Dr's. After they explained everything again, both Dh and I said we understood why they chose Ri (he was one of the healthier preemies and would handle the flight better then the others) and that it was just hard for me because I had to leave another baby behind to be with Ri and plus I just gave birth 2 days ago and was all hormonal.
I was still crying when we walked out of the NICU and when I saw the other Dr and the look on his face he looked shocked to see me crying, I just looked down walking by him (I thought he new) I guess he was all worried and went to the back and asked if he missed something with baby A that is when he found out, he thought they had the wrong baby. He then came out to talk with DH and I said he was sorry and that I scared him as well when he saw me crying. He said he was surprised that they chose Ri in a way, and that he was the 3rd baby today to be picked to be sent out (one went to Edmonton the other to Montana I got Regina)
They were so send Ri that night but he ended up going the next day (they could not get the plane ready to leave in time) I arrived late that evening.
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