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Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Well hello AF

Yup looks like she found me, I had to take a double I had no that does not happen.

OMG that just means I am that much closer to TTC again........ I'm a little scared, I am ready to try again but scared of the unknown and I so hope the IVIG was not a fluke.

Well welcome CD1 gosh what memories does this bring

Next step is to call the Ffertility Clinic.

Friday, February 17, 2006

Jumpity jump jump jumpity jump

look at Orion a go.....

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Orion had his Dr apt Yesterday and he now weights 13 lbs and is 24.5inches long and still a babbling away. I can not beleive he is 5months old already.

to see more photos of him just click on his photo flip book on the right ------>

Sunday, February 12, 2006

4 months

2 nights .....

Orion has slept in his room for 2 nights now or should I say it has been 2 nights that mommy has been able to sleep away from him... It is

The 1st night I put him in his room at 10:30pm he slept till 4am, I woke to him babbling to himself so I let him babble and he fell back to sleep then my baby monitor when alien like (freaked me out) I swear this Angel Care Monitor picks up everyone's baby monitor in the cul-de-sac I live on (4 babies under a year old). Orion woke again at 6am to eat.

The second night (last night) he went to bed at 11:30. Before I put him in his room I set up the old Fisher Price monitor plus the Angel Care monitor for the movement sensor fisher price for hearing him, this worked much better no alien like noises this time. I am not sure about the Angel Car monitor it gets so much interference but I like the movement sensor. Orion slept till 6am I went and got him brought him back to my bed and he slept till 8:30am. Another hurdle we or shall I say I have over Baby steps

Oh and I am pretty much done pumping I am down to one pump every other day or when I get very full, I feel guilty for stopping but with going back to TTC I have to stop. I do have a small stash in the freezer but not as much as I wanted. ...... I will get over it, this is just another step right?

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Do you see a resemblance.........

here is a pic of Orion at 4.5monthsno he is not sitting by himself it is the magic of (I took my hand out)

and here is me at around 4 or 5months old

are we not just the happy

Friday, February 10, 2006

Valentine Photos

Here are a couple of Valentine photo's I took of Orion:

Monday, February 06, 2006

Bad Dreams.....

I have had bad nightmare dreams the last couple of nights.

The 1st dream someone was telling Orion is gone he is gone and I remember in the dream I could not see him anywhere, then I kept telling myself in my dream that this is just a dream I will wake up and that is when Orion woke me he was laughing in his sleep.

The second night same thing someone told me Orion is gone but this time a could see him so a ran to him picked him up and he did nothing but he was so warm and I cradled him to me thinking no no no this is not real.............. I woke and looked for Orion next to me he was breathing just fine in his own deep sleep.

These dreams have felt so real and I hate that, hate it hate it. What is my mind telling me......