Went to the Zoo

the other day It was interesting with two kids this time around, I could not just run around with Orion like I did Last year. I felt bad it felt like my boy was being gipped. I am thinking next time I go I will leave Rilon with either his Gramma or auntie so Lil O and I can explore.

Ofcourse I brought my camera, this is a shot thru the fence, my attempt was to have the fence out of focus that you can barely see it.

Don't hate me but

I now fit into my "normal" Jeans (well last week I did)

My tummy is just a bit loose still, I will work on that over the summer (only to get pg again...lol)

From Breastfeeding & pumping to just

pumping. I think I am just used to pumping, breastfeeding seems more of a hassle for me (yes odd I know). Because when pumping I have to do it every 3hrs (120min total in a day or 6 20 minute pumps)

When I breastfeed Rilon he can take over an hour and I still have to give him more from the bottle. So to me why should I sit an hour + if I can give him a bottle in 15min and he is full and happy not frustrated because he still wants more, then pump for 20min,yup pumping it is. He is still getting breastmilk no need to feel guilty about it right but yet I do but I also felt guilty breastfeed because it took that time away from Orion too. You know I have come to narrow it down that feeling guilty is part of being a mommy (a big part).

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Here is a pic of my boys when the were just a week old:

Orion


Rilon

Childhood memories???

As I sit pumping my breast milk for Rilon, Orion is sitting and looking at me with these 2 things attached to my breasts and for some reason today as I stare at my son staring at me I began to wonder "will he remember this vision of me" god I hope not...lol
When I start pumping Orion comes running making the milk sign with his hand and says ilk then he stops and stares or sits beside me in his highchair and he sways to the swooshing sound it makes. He will look at me and giggle. Sometimes it even makes him fall asleep.... swoosh swoosh swoosh.... I even get sleepy.

Here is my "milking" station at home, right now it is my most intimate friend.


Part of my storage of milk (that is not even half of it, there is lots more in the deep freezer in the basement..

CANCELLED

Whooo Hoooo!

Jury selection was cancelled for today, not postponed it was cancelled. I so did not want to go. The weather is crappy here today and I did not want to drive in it and bring Rilon out in it either.

doing the happy dance.

Eyeing each other up.

or as a friend posted, "Holy crap! Would you look at the size of that kid!"

Orion was wonder who and why was this kid in his chair, little does he know that it is time to learn to share, so far he is doing good as soon as Rilon is out of the chair Orion is right in it..lol

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Had my 1st heart stopper the other day:

A friend has lent me her baby bassinet and I had it over behind the single chair (note HAD) I stepped away for a quick second and when I came back around the corner I saw that Orion climb up the chair and made his way into the bassinet, he was standing there smiling and waving and saying see see. My heart stopped and I quickly made my way to get him out of there and hoping that he did not harm Rilon in his adventure, I lifted him out and told him that was a no no, his response was to look up at me with those big brown eyes and say no no with a smile. Somehow he manage to not step on Rilon (I would of loved to have been a fly on the wall to see how he did it) since he was still sleeping soundly. Bassinet is now moved from any climbing objects.

1 month old today

Where did it go?

Well I am going to carry the tradition on and take a photo of him with Mr. Ruffus. This is a stuffed puppy a good friend gave to him (She "M" also is the one that gave Orion his Mr Monkey to take his monthly pic with)

he is Rilon at 1 month old:


he is now eating 70ml of breast milk when I do give him the bottle, he is still not so great on the breast.

What's next!

When I arrived home from Regina in the mail box waiting for me was a letter, Juror Summons.

I am to apear before the courts for jury section on Friday the 20th. I sent an application to be excused from Jury due to that I just had a baby a premature one at that and I am only breastfeeding him. Well I got a call back from them today and they tell me I still have to go to court, hope they don't mind me bringing Rilon (still debating on taking Orion with too) and I will breastfeed him in front of them all if I have to (did I mention I have to use a breast sheild too) I am so upset by this and I just know I will cry infront of the Judge. If they make me do this knowing my situation I have a strong urge to call the media and explain all that has happen since I have had my baby.

I do not think it is right of them to expect me to stop breastfeeding my infant son if they decide to choose me for Jury there are many other people in this city (1millon + in fact ) that they can choose from.

Orion 18m update

Ok yes he is 19months now, DH took Orion to the Appointments because I was in Regina.
His original appointment was on March 20 (we all know what I was doing that day).

DH took Orion to the Health clinic for his 18m needle and weight check (little did dh know he was getting a needle too..lol for the flu) He called in when I was in Regina and asked about what needle Orion gets, I said his card should be in the bag. He then asked about the flu shot if Orion should get it or not since it is near the end of flu season. I said tell the nurse that we just had another baby and that he is a preemie, I heard him telling the nurse this and then I heard her say on then yes he should and you to dad. Dh was like Oh ok then I guess I am getting a needle today...lol

Orion's weight was 22lbs, for some reason I thought he was heavier then that.

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Orion is signing milk & eat now and almost signs water. I have 2 signing time CD's for him to watch but I can find one. He say no no, kitty, doggie, up, down, see see, light, milk, Whoa and yeah.
He is still easy to put to bed for naps and night night, love getting his teeth brushed.

What he loves at the moment:
to climb everything and I mean everything and he is fast too..lol
The pink flamigo commercial for Telus (well all the telus commecials)

My 3 favorite boys

Just think 7yrs of hard work and lots of determination to get to this photo, a family of four now.

Never say never.

the quote I always thought of; "In order to achive what you need, you can never give up." Hope by Shaggy.

Nurse visit

Today the nurse came to visit us (Rilon and I) to see how we are doing. She asked all the questions about postpratum and was happy with my answers. Took my blood pressure which was 106/80 she asked it that was normal I said yeah it is usually around 108. She then took Rilons heart rate 158bpm said it was a bit high but sound good, Dr's like to now if it is 160 of higher. His temp was 36.5 normal and his weight 2250kg (4lbs 15oz) tonight he should reach 5lbs. She said I make good milk...lol

Updated posts:

March 24 1st Day in Regina

March 25 Healthy Boy

He is home

My tiny little guy is home.

His weight leaving the hospital was 2115 (4.7lbs) .

I got to the Hospital at 2pm and the nurse came we went over his charts and tags (to make sure he was mine) then the Dr H came to chat with me she asked me about the ASA (asprin) and the IVIG wanted to know why they had me take them, I explained it all. She then said I have a very healthy little guy and that he is a sweet boy.

Rilon and I left the Hospital around 5pm (in rush hour) When we got home Orion was somewhat curious of this new little creature invading his space...lol He was very gental with him, then went about with is day.

1st night

Wow I almost forgot how tiring it can be. I think my body has finally come down from its adrenalin rush because I am pooped.

Guess who is coming HOME!

Rilon, Rilon is coming home today!

When I went in yesterday the nurse said to leave all his monitors attached to him because they are checking everything to make sure he is good to go home tomorrow (which is today). I had a big smile on my face. They also came by to do the hearing test on him but they came right at his next feeding time so I took the test a bit longer because his sucking on his soother interfeard some, he passed the test.

This morning I have to put his carseat in the car. I fixed up his cradle that is in my room, diapers are bought, his clothes are all washed. Just waiting for auntie J to come over and watch Orion.

Orion either is getting a cold or it is a reaction to the needles he got a week and a half ago. He is sneezing non stop and his nose is runny.

Back dated posts

Birth Story

March 22: Big Bro meets lil bro and off we go

March 23: The dam breaks

more to follow....soon

Birth story

As you know my water broke in the wee hours of March 20 at 4:10am...

I woke to my water breaking, it was just enough that I knew something was up. I got up to go to the washroom and it was clear fluid. I did not want to wake DH yet just in case it was not my water (you never know right... or call it denial..lol) I went and laid back down but 1st I put down a draw sheet..lol. 15min later it happened again back to the washroom I go, still clear fluid. Went a laid down again looked at the time it was 4:30am I did not want to wake anyone just yet thought I'd wait till 5am. A few minutes later more water came out much more this time so I figured I should let dh know what was going on (he has been sleeping in the spare room because I have started to snore and I am pretty restless while sleeping) When I woke him his response was "your having a baby" in a really sleepy voice i was not sure if he understood what was happening..lol. I told him to sleep a bit longer I'd wake him when J gets here. i go down to the main floor and make a mad dash to the bathroom yet again. I call J on her cell (she said it would be on at all times ) and it went to the answering machine, I laughed in the message and said I hope you answer your home phone. She answered her home phone pretty quick and said you want me to come over (no hello..lol, later she told me her dh woke to the ring of the phone and said Y is having the baby and went back to sleep..lol)

J arrived about an 1/2 hr later time was now a little past 6am. Dh woke and we left for the Hospital, we arrived at 7am. We went up to the L/D floor I told the nurse at the desk that my water broke and I am 33w 3d pg, I was then taken in to the Pre-labour room hooked up to the machines to follow Rilon's hb and my contractions if and when they started. Now we had to wait for the Dr to arrive. dr finally arrived and asked all the questions...blah blah blah... She the checked to make sure it was my water for sure and when she inserted the thing (whatever it is called) more water came out and she said no need for me to check more that is your water that broke you are here to stay. I was then hooked up to an IV with some antibiotics to fight infection off since my water broke and no contractions as of yet. Once again they did not want me to go into labor.

I was now admitted, mum an B arrived and shortly after my sis H did too. H then asked mum if she could go into the delivery room this time instead of her. I could see mum was a bit taken back by that and I knew she really wanted to be in there but being the mum that she is she told H you can but you better take some good pics.

The NICU Dr R came to see me and explain and go over a few things about having a preemie, when I saw him I said I remember you, when you did your rounds you saw my son. He then said oh so I guess you have been there and done that..lol Then call this a re-fresher. He came back a few time to just check on me. Nurse came in to get me and move me to a labor room (I think it was the same room I had Orion in) The delivery Dr came back and checked my cervix it was 2cm this was at 2pm. She then came back around 5pm and checked again it was only 3cm, I was a bit disappointed and thought what only 3.

My contractions were starting to come every 2 to 10 min apart, which was frustrating. It was when I finally sat on the birthing ball that they started to become regular and hurt more they were 3 to 4min apart. As I am bouncing and rocking on the ball I could here dh and my mum playing a game on his phone. H was rubbing my back. She and dh would switch. Around 9pm my nurse came in to see me and saw that my contractions were intense so she went to see if she could find the Dr to check me, when the nurse came back she said that she saw they planned on coming to check me at 10pm, I then had another contraction the nurse then said I think I need to check you myself now(9:30pm). When she did I was at 8cm, she left to find the Dr, NICU team and the epidural guy when she came back she said they were already in with another delivery.... I moaned and said so I guess no epidural for me...lucky me as another contraction took a hold of me. Nurse left the room to check on other patients.

My contractions were came faster and harder now and then I had the huge urge to push when I told Dh this he ran for the nurse she came running in saying that is a good thing to come and get me, said the NICU team was still in the other delivery. Nurse checked my cervix again and said you are there your 10cm I need to find some Dr's. She came back with a Dr for me and 2 others for Rilon. By this time I was squeezing H's hand and arm so hard I was in so much pain dh was rubbing my back. The dr and the nurse were telling me not to push yet ( I was wanting to scream and say you try not to push when he is fighting his way down and out)The nurse then came and took over from H and was talking me thru my contractions telling me to breathe thru the pain ( I was ready to crawl off the bed and climb the walls to try and get out of there but I new the pain would follow) DH thought I was going to fall off the bed by the way I was panting & wiggling about. They then had me on my back dh and the nurse both had a leg I was squeezing both of there hands the dr was finally telling me to push,by this time my eyes were so heavy I could not keep them open, Rilon's head was right there they held the mirror up for me to see but I just could not keep my eyes open to watch. I believe 4 pushes later his head was out and wiggling around and again Dr was telling me not to push (what...OMG! was she kidding, almost impossible) but I fought hard not to and I mean fought hard.
I then heard the Dr say get a towel for mom as soon as the towel was on my belly Dr said gentle pushes and then he was out and cry that beautiful sound (11:24pm) What a sight to see my new son.

He cried a few time when the Dr's were checking him over. Once again I had to remind my family to go take photos of him...lol. Mum and H were both able to stay and watch the delivery, I guess when things started to happen and with now NICU team they forgot that they were in the room. They nurse brought Rilon over to me and placed him in my arms, I was having a hard time keeping my eyes open to look at him. Dh came over and was checking Rilon out too, I started to feel very tired my eyes were so droopy that I said to Dh to take Rilon from my arms because I can not stay awake. I remember Dh taking him and I remember seeing Dh in the corner holding Rilon up to his face and smiling then my eyes closed. I heard the Drs say lets take him to the NICU you all can come if you want then the room was quiet. My nurses shift was over she said she was glad I delivered because she would not be able to sleep.

The new shift nurse came in and brought me some toast to eat, I was so hungry and so tired that I was falling asleep eating. I just gave up eating and closed my eyes and that is when Dh my mum and sis came back (I just was not going to get sleep...lol) The nurse then got a wheelchair for me and wheel me to meet my son. Once again I remember sitting at Rilons bedside fighting to keep my eyes open. Once I was in my room and everyone left I was out like a light.

I never did get Rilon's Apgar score. I also did not need any stitches I only ended up with one teeny tiny tear.

Home sweet home....

We are back home, got here 2 nights ago late in the evening. Rilon arrived in the afternoon while mum and I had to wait for a 9:40pm flight.

Rilon was taken to another hospital here in the city which is on the other side of town from where we live..lol at least we are back home.

When Rilon arrived the nurse call dh to let him know that he arrived safely alone with my breast milk...lol They said he was quiet hungry when they reached the hospital (they will not feed him on the plane, it was a bit past his feeding time when they arrived at the hosp.)

As of today Rilon has not been gavaged feed for 2.5days he has drank from the bottle or breast fed. He now weights 2015 gram = 4.44lb, lbs ( something is off and it is either the conversions site I use or the hospitals because they say his birth weight was 1960 gram = 4.32 lb, lbs but the pounds they told me was 4.51lbs abd the site I use gave me the other 4.32 hmmm)

Orion did not take strange to me either, he was asleep when dh & I got home so when he woke in the morning I went in to get him like it was just anyother day and all he did was look at me for a moment then put his arms up to me.... my boy looks so big now and how I missed him so.

I will be back dating a few posts about our stay in Regina, so be sure to check back if you want... Photos will be updated aswell (eventually...lol)