Hello Si

I had my baby boy on Sept 10 at 4:25pm he was 35wks 3d

I will post the birth story later.

Hello plug

35w1d

I have been cramping all day today some I have to stop and breathe thru it....this started last night.

Went to the Dr today and there was some change with my cervix but not enough to admit me. Since I have been home from the Dr I beleive I lost my plug and my cramping is a bit stronger too.
So looks like it could happen soon, I just hope not on lil O's birthday I don't want them to share a birthday.

If I do not have him tonight I really need to take some photos tomorrow.

Why is it

that my almost 4yr old will nap but not the 2yr old...hmmm?

Ri was in his bed babbling then he started to call out for his brother then continued on to sing some wiggles songs stopped for a moment (I thought I was so lucky) then he started to call Momma come, come Momma. Thought I'd better go up before he started to scream for me and then wake Lil O. As I got to his room I see that he threw his puppy, firetruck pillow and blanket on to the floor and when I walked in he said "Momma I can't get them" as his arms are hanging over the railings.

So where is he now, yup down on the main floor with me playing while his big bro sleeps.

Well looky here

I am still pregnant, 33wks 4days is the furthest I have ever been in a pregnancy.

Mind you I feel about ready to explode. I have been having lots of Braxton hicks and some weird feeling in the lower regions..lol

Apparently this is what the boys think I look like

Geesh...I have been a Baaaad blogger

What can I say Facebook has sucked me in.

anyways I am still pregnant I was 32wks as of Monday
Took this photo at 30wks
I have had major heartburn indigestion (gaviscon is my new best friend) This boy moves alot and I mean a lot. Sleep is getting tough it is so uncomfortable to try to sleep on my right side partly due to my UU and all the sleeping on my left is killing my hip. Had my Steroid shots 2wks ago so we are all set for that, also had my 32wk check up today Dr said cervix is ok nothing to drastic but since I have been home I have had lots of Braxton Hicks and even some brown spot.

I almost feel like Si is going to stay in longer then his brothers did but I thought that with Ri and he still came at 33wk 3d so I will just take it day by day for now.

I really need to take some prenatal portraits but I have just have had no energy whatsoever.

The boys are being boys and brothers, lets just say the fights have started and boy oh boy can Lil O go at it and they both have a temper but yet diffenernt kind of temper it is werid. They love music all of a sudden they always want the radio on now, which is fine with me a little break for "tree House" other then the wiggles. It is so funny to watch them dance and sing the words to some songs.... that Boom Boom Pow...oye.

We have begun contruction on the upper and lower deck in our backyard, the contract guys are so much better then the guy we had do the basement....soooo much better. Looking forward to when it is all done.

off to bed with me

waves rolling in

Thought these clouds looked interesting, I took this shot just a few minutes ago and now the cloud is gone but it is starting to rain.

28Wks 3days

Had an u/s today and it went well. Si is staying put or as the u/s tech said looks like fort Knox in there he is not going anywhere. Dh, the boys, my mum and B all came, I guess when I was walking towards the nurse (they talk with you 1st and take your blood pressure before the u/s) Ri was looking thru the glass window in to the hall/elevator area and saw my reflection and freaked and jumped off dh and ran out into the hall thinking that is where I went, guess they had a goo chuckle over it.

Well my blood pressure was 110/58. As I was back in the waiting area Si started to move around alot and my tummy was bouncing all over the place.

Si is head down at the moment and is measuring at 29wks and weigh approxamently 2lbs 12os

When the tech was done with all her measurments that is when mum and B came in to see. Si was practicing his breathing and was even opening and closing his mouth sucking on his fingers and he was doing something I never saw with any of my u/s he was opening and closing his eyes, The tech said that that was even werid she never saw it either.

Well here is the little man:

The early morning beast

That is what I call him at the moment his real name is Stuck, anyways this boy for some reason every time he runs up or down the stairs he makes a weird meowing/purring noise. It is funny when he does it during the day but not at 3am

Why must people very annoying people

s p a m ... get a life.

Well Mr Si is growing well they say

u/s shows him healthy and my cervix long at 4. He is breach which explains all the jolts I have been getting through my cervix as he loves to pound on it. The Tech also said he has long legs.

Profile

Nose mouth cheek

as I was making my next appoinment Ri fell face 1st into the little play station area and started to scream his head off so I went and picked him up not realizingg he actually did hurt himself till I saw the blood on my white top then the big swell of his jaw and watched as it change to a black purple colour.
Poor boy has bumps all over at the moment because a few days before that he was sitting at the table and fell off the chair and his forehead met the other chair then the floor.... this little man is giving mum a fright

The goose egg on his forehead

and the bruise on his jaw

Blow

Went to the park yesterday and ran into a neighbor so we sat and chatted while the kids played. When we were leaving I showed the boys well tried to show them how to blow the white dandelions. Lil O got it fairly quickly but he just kept putting it to close to his mouth ans when he inhaled to blow I was sure he'd inhale some of the dandy, he did not he was lucky. As for Ri the noises coming from his mouth...lol he did not quite get it yet.

Science Centre

Hubby and I took the boys to the Science Centre yesterday and had a good day, the boys were checking out everything. I have to say that I have lived here all my life and I have never been there. The photos are not the greatest I really need to bring my external flash next time the lighting in there was terrible.

They were amazed at the ball floating

Still closed

My cervix that is.

Had my 22wk check up today. I have to say the office was moving fast today I did not even have all the paper filled out when Dr O walked in, I said to him boys you all are fast today..lol He laughed said he will come back in a moment and let me finish up.

When he came back he said to so your back, in Dr S's referral she says your full of surprises. since your FSH was high you were not expected to get pg and yet here you are....with a big smile on his face. As we were going through my history again he paused and said you know you are in the 1% to have a abdominal ectopic like you had and went on to get pg on your own, carried further then we expected you to and now your having a baby when told you could not...... not many out there like you.

The only thing that I have not done to them is have twins...lol... and I do know a UU can carry twins.

So heart weight good (I did not get it) cervix closed baby moving. My blood presure is good

Next appointment is June 23 next u/s is June 25

The boys were so good through out the whole appointment even Dr O mentioned that they were well behaved today.

My pride

Well the other day before I put the boys down for a nap I said to Lil O "maybe when you wake up momma can take some photos of you?" his response "ok when I wake up" SO what was the 1st thing out of his mouth when he woke...."You gonna take pictures of me momma?" Yes my sweet boy I am. He did so good to my little poser and of course Ri got in on it to (I knew once he saw big bro doing it he'd want to too)


And this is a snapshot of Lil O helping Ri jump off the couch for the 1st time yesterday.
Lil O has a few saying he say quiet alot lately:

"Maybe next time"
"When I am bigger"
"things happen"
"In a moment" this is usually when he asks for something and starts of with "in a moment we can go out to the park...."

June is what the Calendar says ..... this is JUNE right!

This is what we woke to this morning and it is still snowing.

Crocheted a baby hat

I have been wanting to make a hat like this for a bit but could not figure out how so I sat down last night and figured it out.

Now to make a few more in different colours.

I am out numbered

another little boy was proud to show his parts today at the u/s. Dh even said a boy before the tech did she laughed and said well you have seen a few u/s I guess because that was not that obvious.

at one point looks like we got the finger from him

will post more about the appointment later

I am hurting

my hip is in pain, never seems to fail the bursitis always flares when I am preggo (it does other times to but it never seems to miss a pregnancy) so I sit here icing my hip.


As I sit here I am looking on the web and for a while now (well a couple of weeks) have been eying up a new camera bag found here Camera bag and also this one I can not decide what one I like most but I think I am leaning more towards the Jayden bag since it holds the camera aswell, now I just need to figure out what fabric I want. If only I knew how to sew but from past experiance the sewing machince and I have not got along to well

Oh and

I am 19wks today!!!!

and still no call from the Dr office...what is up with that.

I am so glad I feel this one moving around and giving me kicks often otherwise I'd be a mess.

Big u/s next week but not looking forward to how early we have to be there.

May long weekend

We went to my "parents" campsite on Sunday and on the way there this thing landed on the windshieldHere are the boys were playing with the bubbles


and a bird at the bird feeder


After I shot the bird a huge wind storm came out of nowhere. Good thing I had on a sweater because I hid the camera under it and ran to my kids since they were facing it looking at the big dust tunnel coming towards them. I huddled with the kids while mum B and dh put the onning (sp?) up so it would not get ruined or tip the trailer over it was that strong that a fellow camper came running to help them.

a couple of things

I forgot to mention the other day.

When I was at Mother's Day supper at my sister H house, my niece T came home she was wearing shorts(it was not that nice out...teenagers I tell ya...lol) Lil O was looking at her funny so I asked him what was wrong...his response was with a scrunched up face and pointed to T's shorts I said those are shorts he said no I don't like them noooo.

guess he does not like shorts...lol

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Yesterday the boys and I walked to a near by park and they were playing very nice and then this grandmom came with here to grandkids a boy about Lil O's age and a girl Ri's age, well I saw Ri was trying to go up the stairs so he go to the slide part. This little girl would not let him then she started to puch him a couple of times (this is Ri's 1st encounter with a pushy kid) well he did not like it and came crying over to me. A few minutes later Lil O was coming down the slide and the girl was at the bottom Lil O sat for a moment and she went up to him and grabbed his thigh I thought she was going to pinch him (she was) but Lil O moved his leg just before she squeezed. (that would not of been pretty) So lil O go up and moved away from her and she followed him and then she tried to push him a couple of time....Lil O looked at her and said "That is not nice little girl" then he turned and walked away from her.....that was a proud mommy moment for me since he did not push her back. that is when the grandmother started to pay attention the girl, because again she was over by the stairs and not letting the kids up....they left shortly after.

18wks

Well I finally put a call into my family Dr N this morning, since it has been 5wks from last appointment and well she said she does not know what to do with me since I am high risk (she does not want to do some unnecessary poking to me and does not know what Dr O has done to me in the past), so she said she'd call Dr S at the fertility clinic to see what is up.


Update:

It was a good thing I called the Dr.

My Family Dr called the clinic who called the high risk Dr and they Apparently did not receive my info from the clinic to set me up....Clinic called me back with a set ultrasound for May 28 at 7:45am and then the other Dr office will be calling me in a day or two with an appt with them.

If I had not called no one would of called me...I do not need a repeat of what happened with William.

This is what I am dealing with today

1st it was snowing then raining then snow then rain, everything seemed quiet and guess what it is


is summer soon?

15w 3day belly

I figure it was time I took a photo of the belly. Just a quick snap shot before I went out.

and then the boys wanted in on it:

I still have not got the call to see Dr O (he followed my pg with the boys) it is kind of making me nervous but the clinic said if they do not call by the time I reach 19wks to call my family Dr to set up the 20wk u/s.

24hrs later

this is what we have:





the snow started to fall around noon yesterday as I was leaving to go to store I was in only an hour and came out to have to scrap my van off with snow and ice..... enough already please but that is asking to much since it never fails that we get snow on May long weekend pretty much 95% of the time.

Make a face

I asked Ri to make a happy sad and mad face did not expect him to really do it or understand what I was asking him to do...but he did....guess I need to give him more credit..lol

A Loom you say.....

On one of the message boards I am on they kept bring up this Knifty Knitter loom thing, at 1st I had no clue what they were talking about this is a photography board I am on and they are talking about this thing..lol Anyways the more I saw photos of projects the more I was intrigued (since I have forgotten how to knit myself) but the penny pincher that I am (other then photography stuff :) ) I did not want to pay the 29.00 for it. One day I was at Value Village (A thirht store and the Loom set was right there for $3.00 could not pass that up it came with 4 loom circles different sizes and a hook with instructions. So I tried it out the other night and it was pretty easy:







now to find different yarn and try a different pattern...then all I need is a baby to photograph

Oh Baby

all looks great! Nuchal scan went great chances of anything wrong are 1 in 1047 AWESOME!

Baby was moving and actually measures bigger then the 13w2d baby measures a week ahead.

The boys were watching the u/s and at 1st Lil O said that it looked scary and he did not like it...lol Ri was to concerned at what the lady was doing on my tummy, Gramma and Grandpa were in the room to.

My apt was for 1:30 I got there and sat and waited as usual then they called my name and some other took us into a little room to explain the Nuchal scan then we had to go back and sit in the waiting room for the blood test. Waited another 20min till I had my name called for the blood draw then back to the waiting room and waited forever.....name was called again and the scan was great...guess what back to the waiting room for the results, by this time is was 3:10pm. 3:30 rolls around and no results yet I still had to go back to the fertility clinic and the closed at 4pm. I asked the girl at the desk if it would be much longer and that is when my name was called she took me back to go over everything again (2nd time a Dr already came into the u/s room) gave me the papers and I rushed over to the clinic to see Dr S...I get there and guess what we waited again...lol.

Dr S calls me in and as I was walking with the boys all the nurses were admiring there big brown eyes and all. Dr S said as we sat down that I still amaze and surprise them all and goes over the results... She also said that if I wanted to do the amnio sine I am over 35 now I can and they do them around 15-18weeks...I don't think I want to do this since the odds are on my side.

Nuchal translucency ultrasound

today to see if baby is healthy and ok, I feel a little nervous this time around. Things seem to be going to well, you know when going through multiple losses and infertility and then when something goes the way it should...just does not feel right..call me strange...I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop (I know I have wrote this before)

I am 13w 2d, I find the baby with my Doppler no problem. I still need to take belly shots maybe if I get home at a decent time I will take some. Appointment is a 1:30pm my mum and Barry are coming with they like seeing the u/s.

Wow

Facebook is something else I tell ya.

I had an ex-boyfriend find me and requested friendship and when I saw this...well some emotions popped up because you see this relationship ended badly police were called and he was taken away and I never saw him again till a few years later (I was 16yrs old). I came across him at his work but we never spoke to one another (I was still a bit angry and scared, not to mention the relationship I was in at that moment was not the greatest either...that's another story) I did not see or hear from him again till a few weeks ago when he requested to be friends on FB. I hummed and hawed but then thought it was many years ago we were young and well forgiveness is a powerful thing, so I accepted his friendship. We shared a couple of messages on how our lives are but never mentioned what happened that night. Till last night he sent me a message asking why did I accept him as a friend..... good question...

I wrote:
"Well to be honest I did think about it 1st before I accepted you as a friend, After thinking about it you really were not that bad it was just at the end of it all that things went sour. We were young and well I have grown past it all and hope you have too."

He responded back by saying he was sorry for what transpired that night. he has been regretting it for years and wishing for the chance to say sorry. He was happy for how my life is now and thanked me for the time we did share.

I was taken back almost to tears it is amazing even 20yrs after what happened.

I responded with a thank you.

Must be nice

to have a day off so to speak and hide away from the wife and kids!

He truly does not understand that I too would/need a break and not just to go upstairs and put laundry away...I need out I need a me time. My hormones are all messed up right now I cry at the drop of a pin or just plain moody and well then he gets all mad and ignores me which in turn the kids too. Do I have to keep asking for help or a break? It is tiring especially when It still does not happen for me... are men just that dense to it all?

well that is it my pity party is over. I'll suck it up and go on as I normally do.

Well now

It has been a few days since I last posted here, to many computer stuff I tell ya...between Facebook and a few other message board I belong to one always seem to fall behind....and why is facebook so addicting?

Anyways.......

My Ri guy is now 2yrs old he is not so much a baby anymore. We did not have a big party just some family came over and had cake...Oh guess the cake was for me too since I am a yr older now ..lol

My pg s going well I feel ill and oh so tired with this one I can not seem to get anything done around here...I am slacking big time.

I am trying to go through my photo of 2008 so I can make a photo book man I took a lot of photos. Then I can not decide which photos to put on my photo wall I have (It is 12x12 frame I have 9 of them, 3 down and 3 across)

I have not really touched my camera much lately just feeling tire and blah and this weather sucks I am so tired of the snow does it not know it is SPRING now!

How sweet it is

heard a little thump thump thump on my Doppler last night.... what a sweet sound.

ABC

Today I thought about ABC with Lil O and when I sang out ABCD...(I paused) and he sang the rest my jaw hit the floor.......when did he learn this????

U/S went great

9w2d

baby is doing well measures 9w2d ( I wrote the wrong weeks last post so I changed it)



I had to take the boys with me and they made me so proud. Ri started to cry a little when the u/s tech put the probe on my belly but settled pretty quick, lil O just stood at the end of the table and watched never made a peep.

Had to go to the fertility clinic right after (just down the hall) and again they were really good in the waiting area. As the nurse called my name another patient said my name and I paused and looked at her she said her name the then place we worked at together, I then remembered her and sad that she was still having a hard time ttc...I told her not to loose hope.. she said yes I see that and looked at my boys.
While waiting for the Dr to come in Lil O asked what the funny looking table was that had things sticking out of it (the stirups on the table) I said that is where some get a check up. Then Dr W walked in and Lil O looked at him and said "I don't want a check up" I lol and said no this is mummys check up the table is not needed today. Dr W chuckled.

My next u/s is the the nuchal translucency on Apr 8.

After wards I took the boys to a play area since they were so good.

What can I say

I am so flipping tired, this pg has me so drained....and to eat that is a chore but I get food down.

I am about 9w2d today go for another u/s on Wed to see how the weeOne is doing. I still am amazed that I am pg, I can not get over it and then I start thinking wow 3 kids wow..lol. I am still very nervous too I am waiting for something to happen something always happens so what is it going to be this time....I am just waiting.......

in other news we got a contracter in to do out basement (a little over half is on barter) they started on Dec 10th, what is all to be done is:
Paint the main area and trim put up the drop celine.
Drywall the spare bedroom/office, paint , trim and drop celing.
put in a 3 peice bathroom

well today is March 9 and the painting was done in the 1st 2wks, painter and contracter are 2 different guys (painter gets the job done when he said he would)
the other guy well not sure about him..lol. He 1st said that it would all be done at the end of Jan (even signed a contract with dh) well that came and went then he asked if it could be extended till end of Feb.....see where I am going...end of Feb came and went and he is not done has not even said anything. He had his trailer of tools parked on our drive way for the longest time, I have often wandered what he was doing if his trailer is here and he is working else where (unless he has more trailers) He has not showed up today yet was not here Friday. The job is slowly getting done slowly and all I can say is I hope it is done by the time the weather is nice, so we can use the basement. As for reference he won't be getting one from us...just too many ecusses and does not show up when he says he will be here.

bathroom area before:


bathroom area today:


main area before:


Main area today:

Had u/s

On Wednesday and we are measuring 7w4d hb 147




I get there 10min late (could not find a parking space) and they have me sit for almost another 10 and then they inform me that they want to go for lunch can I come back at one....WHAT! Why could they not say this when I walked in ant 2 I have to now see if it is ok with the fertility clinic (they are down the hall) if I come at one now, since I am to see then right after the u/s.
Clinic was fine but I did say the the u/s place everyone here takes there lunch at the same time? I was not a happy camper lets say. Good thing a mall is near buy. I went and bought Lil O some swim trunks and found distilled water for the steam mop I just bought.

whoot whoot

**** We have a baby in the uterus with a wonderful heart beating away.

Still not really out of the woods but so far all looks great, I have to go back for another u/s to determine how far along I really am but the Dr is thinking around 7wks...I am really pg... seeing that heart beating just had me in awe.

When the Dr Scott walked in she looked at me and said "You sure like to deify all odds don't you...lol"


I went to the clinic for 1:10pm and did not see her till 2pm I was to be at the hospital for 2pm. Got to the Hosp at 2:45 and my IVIG was not ready...oh what a surprise... so finally was hooked and and running at 3:30pm done at 5:30.


What a day!

Got the call from the Clinic

Nurse Amanda said they received my 1st numbers and they are at 16,000 so somewhere between 6 and 8weeks...(I am thinking 6weeks) I go in to the clinic for a quick u/s just so they can make sure of the measurements and that baby is where is should be and hopefully see a heart beat.

I had to tell mum yesterday because she called and asked if she could get rid of that highchair since Ri sits nicely now, I was like umm ah well...I did not want to say anything just yet but you may want to keep it for a bit longer...apparently I am pg, we are just waiting on my beta #'s. I told her not to say a word to anyone.

I called mum this morning to see if she a papaBear could watch the boys tomorrow while I go to the clinic and then to my IVIG, she said she had to tell PapaBear I said well I ecpected that..lol she said he got all teary eyed.

I feel nauseaus this morning

BLahhhhh

I feel ill.....but that is a good thing I take it.. :)

Went for my 1st beta blood draw go again tomorrow since I could not go today, Family Day and all. I have avoided talking with family...lol

I am still shocked, I am afraid to believe it

Man I thought I'd play cool

with this one but Nooooooo....the obsessing has started, Doing the TP check and I wonder about every little twitch or pain I get now, I also find myself poking at my breast so see if the are getting sore....umm yeah that will do it.....And man do I hate to sneeze!

Oops loosing it already....

I forgot to mention that when I put the boys down for there nap I normally put Lil O's diaper back on (he only has it on when he sleeps) well being so preoccupied I forgot... well he slept 2hrs without incident, he woke calling out to me that he went in his pants. I went in to get him and he would not walk, he was walking bull legged, I asked what he was doing he said he went in his pants (I am thinking yeah so why walk funny) then it dawned on me he did not have a diaper on so I felt his butt if there was bulk nope none just his boxers...then I heard him say oh poop poo so I hurried him to the potty he was all upset that he started to go in his pants I said it is ok I am sorry momma forgot his response "yeah mommy bad you forgot"... it all went where is was to go...in the potty.

I am so proud of my boy.

He is also really starting to use his imagination a lot, today he was stomping around and he announced that he was a giant as he stomped and marched around repeating I am a giant, here I come......

Poking starts tomorrow.

The nurse called me back from the fertility clinic and said to start my beta test on Saturday and then Tuesday (since Monday is a Holiday) a little longer then the 48hrs they like but it will still let them see if my levels are rising. Also IVIG will start next week, good thing I have a few books I need to read. Depending on my #'s it will decide if I need an u/s sooner then later, since I don't have a clue as to how far along I am...Last af was Dec 19.

The nurse laughed when I told her that I figured I should call them after the 4th test. She said it makes her smile when she is told this, since the 1st one already says you pg...lol so from the looks of it I could have a new one in my arms between Sept to Nov sometime if I go full term or not and if everything go well...

I still can not believe it. Dh bets on how long I can keep it a secret I said till at least after my 1st appointment.

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I told dh

and asked him to bring home another test...lol...(yes I need to POAS a few times) This mornings was a little darker....why can I not still believe this.

When I mentioned it to dh he got a little excited and said oh so a girl could be in our future?

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Here is proof my boys do love each other...they make my heart swell


Good think Lil O was wearing the helmet for fun because after I took this shot they tripped and he fell and hit the stove with his head...helmet worked..lol

still hmmmm

Well took another pg test and it was BFP
dare I post a photo of this.
Cyber world is the 1st to know....I have not told hubby nor my family yet, don't want to get them all excited if it turns out to be nothing. Just when I was getting use to the idea of being told I had a slim to nill chance of having another baby this happens.

Hmmm

Can pre-menopause cause a false positive? I am going to take another test in the morning see what I get, I am so dang confused right now.

I am going crazy

or at least I feel like it...

this so called pre-menopause is kicking my butt.

I feel so emotional, my temper is quick then I feel like crying and then I am fine.... I am so hot I want to rip my clothes off then the next minute I have the chills....I don't feel like BD'ing at all let alone touching me (I know he does not understand, he thinks pms is not real....I have/had bad pms too) Af is late 3wks so a part of me wonders is this pms but then I get the hotflashes. I want a hug but then if I get it I know I will start to cry, on top off all that my pap was abnormal so I now have to wait (and dh is worried about it) I seem to have an ache/pain all the time, when one goes another comes....... I just feel like I can't win at the moment

there got it out...

Ahh

Sure do not get much done when the kids are sick and the weather not so great.... Glad to say the kids are better and the weather is refreshing.... we went and played outside in the snow yesterday. My oldest had fun the youngest he still was not so sure of the white cold wet stuff.




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Last night as Lil O was eating supper he was flipping through the paper and I said to him O finish up your supper please. His response " I'm trying to read the page mom..."

I need out....

2weeks straight at home...oye.

2 sick kids one right after the other....we need out....

Ri is better now Lil O is on the mend pretty much there, if not tomorrow we will get out on Wed...I hope.

They sure are too very different sick kids.

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I just finished reading Marley and Me it was not to bad did get a couple chuckles out of it and I did cry at the end. It took a few chapters for me to get into it though.