I am going crazy

or at least I feel like it...

this so called pre-menopause is kicking my butt.

I feel so emotional, my temper is quick then I feel like crying and then I am fine.... I am so hot I want to rip my clothes off then the next minute I have the chills....I don't feel like BD'ing at all let alone touching me (I know he does not understand, he thinks pms is not real....I have/had bad pms too) Af is late 3wks so a part of me wonders is this pms but then I get the hotflashes. I want a hug but then if I get it I know I will start to cry, on top off all that my pap was abnormal so I now have to wait (and dh is worried about it) I seem to have an ache/pain all the time, when one goes another comes....... I just feel like I can't win at the moment

there got it out...