31 week belly photos

I finally got to taking the photos while Lil O had a nap.

After I was done I realized that I had the camera on the wrong setting, so here are some of the good ones. I will need to take other one this week on the proper settings..

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Lil O then woke so I took a couple with him, my little poser.



Rilon has been a very active boy these last couple of days.

Hair pic

this is the after shot ( I can not find any decent before shots..lol) and you can see my big ole belly (I forgot to mention that Ri weight is about 4lbs.)

Had u/s today

and they said all looks fine, cervix looks great said it measures around 3cm (30mm) and when I said to the Dr P there that Dr O felt a difference in my cervix by doing the internal, Dr P then said oh yeah at this stage it is more accurate with the internal then by u/s... (can we say someone covering there buts) As I was watching the girl scan I noticed Ri was not his active self and that he was also pretty low head looked like it was engage and ready to be born... I feel I have a few more weeks, but you just never really know do you.

I went and got my hair cut today as well, My dh works at a Spa as a massage therapist (no not lucky me...) but instead of me having to pay he traded services with the stylist so now she gets a nice massage for cutting my hair and she did an awesome job. It was the 1st time I have go to her and I will be back, finally someone who was not afraid to get right in there and cut and do a different style on me and it is different because Lil O was not so sure of me when I got home took him about an 1/2 to warm up to mommy's new look...lol.
I took a before and after shot on my cell phone but S did not save it so I think they are lost I will post a pic later this week since I need to do a belly photo.

Well guess what has opened... yup my Cervix..

and for some odd reason I am surprised...lol

So Good Ole Dr had the nurse give me my 1st Steroid shot today and I go back tomorrow around 3:30pm (24hr later) for the next one. When he was checking my cervix he said yup there is change and you have opened so we need to give you the steroid now and I laid there shocked...WHY... I don't know...lol.

So Today I am 31w by my last AF but by u/s I will be 31w on Saturday. I go for another u/s on Thrusday and see how open I am.

You know I have been having such crappy sleeps for the last couple of nights too.
As for the NICU situation it seems to be ok at the moment.

I guess I should pack my bags eh.

Hoping for another 4wks at least

Oh and would you not know, My mum and sis came to clean house today so they watched Orion for me as I went to the Dr and when I got to the office a parking spot was free right at the front doors and it was not that cold either. When I got into the office my wait was short... go figure... since I did not have Orion with me everything went fast and smooth not the he ever minded.

B/P was 128/76
Urine Normal
Weight ~ 61.kg (134lbs)

See Dr next Thrusday

Play date day.....

For Orion.

We met with S and her dd C for a play date at the mall kiddie area, the 1st time we took the kids here. As we walked in the play area the ground was softly padded, nice to know that if they fell they would not be hurt even the climbing stuff was soft.

Orion surprised me we were not in the play area for even 2min and he was off crawling to the 1st thing got up and start walking to the next. I was kind of shocked my little boy left me behind, he was climbing everything he could. I did see him look back for me few times to make sure I was still around made me feel good he still wants mommy close... He had so much fun the smiles on his little face melted my heart.
Once he figured out that he could climb one thing then slide down the other side he was in heaven, he even new to turn his but around to go down smiling all the way...again without mommy's help. My little boy wants to do it on his own first and if he can not then he looks to me for help.

He did not freak out when kids came up to him he'd just squeal and laugh with them, I had to think this is my boy... he normally starts to cry when a stranger looks or comes up to him, not today.

We were there for 1hr 45min and Orion and C were non stop the whole time, I took 97photos of him...lol.. I love Digital.





The pics are not the greatest because I was playing with my toy...lol I was fooling around with the settings, getting to know my Canon XTi.

A box fell on my back

When I was at Micheals craft store today.

I was in the isle and stopped to give Orion a snack and moved to the side of the cart for his bag and BANG right on my back it took me a second that something fell on me, it hit me just below my shoulder blades. If I did not move to the side of the cart when I did it would of nailed Orion square on the head. I said loud enough to the person on the other side to be carefull & when she came to the other side to pick up the box I said to her that it just missed my son and hit me. Her only response was OH..picked up the box and walked away, no sorry or are you ok just, oh.. (yes she was an employee)

Rilon is moving like crazy so I am not to worried.

Here it the video of Orion walking

It took the whole day to upload this video youtube must be busy...





Orion Walking

More then one

Step that is....... Orion is finally WALKING YEAH! (I say that now)

On Valentines Day I was cleaning up some because I had a friend "Missy" coming in from out of town. As I was wiping the counter tops down I hear this joyus giggle coming Orion so I look over at him and his is standing up eveys right on me and then he did it he took 5steps to me, I cheered and cheered clapping my hands, even laughing himself as he feel but got right back up again... He kept doing this then I thought to myself I better catch this on video for daddy (so he'd beleive me...lol).

When Auntie Missy arrived Orion played shy for a bit but a few hours later he was showing off his new talent he kept Walking and walking for her.

Daddy got home later so I could only show him the video of his boy walking and Dh said well Happy Valentines Day to us..lol

here are some photos of him walking in the morning...
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29w Dr update

29 weeks today

Cervix still closed nice and tight.
Rilon's Heart rate was 148bpm.
my bp was 119/60
Weight was 59.8kg (about 132lbs) I think I have gained only 15lbs so far, not bad since I gained 23lbs I think with Orion.

I asked how the NICU/SCN were doing since he is one of the head guys on that floor aswell, Dr said that yes it is tight but the media is also making more of it then it is. He said that most likely I will not be shipped out but the possiblitiy is there. He mentioned that last year 6 were shipped out within Canada from here and this yr they have had to send out 4 including one to the states. I asked about passport he said good question but you would not need one not sure about dh.

He said I was doing well, I even said I think I may just make it a bit further then I did with Orion (have not had many tightens for the last week) he said yeah maybe a week or two more.

I asked about being able to take anything for my cold stuffy nose he said NO not to take anything, Guess I have to ride it out.....

It was one of the coldest days of the week so far -20c and I had to walk a distance to the Dr office since the office parking was full (Dr office is at the Hospital). The roads were slippery one girl fell down beside me as we were walking.... I asked if she was ok, secretly thankful that it was not me. On Monday there was over 200 accidents because the icy road conditions, if people would only learn to slow down in this weather...

Next appointment in 2weeks.

Will this ever END....

I have yet another cold! Grrrrrrr

I my nose is going non stop my eyes are watering and my head is achy plus I feel sleepy no energy what so ever...... WHY (yes I am whining) I feel like doing this and this

Cervix update...

28w 2d (27w 5d)

Cervix measured 31mm which is great...whew!

I was at the u/s clinic for 3 hrs yes 3 flipping hours!
My appointment was for 10am. When we got there the room was full so I knew it would be somewhat of a wait but not 3hrs, good thing DH drove his own car because he had a massage client at 12pm. My name was called after 1hr to come back to the Questioning room (make sure everything is up to date) then they took us to another waiting area to wait for the u/s tech. Two other couples came in right behind us and they were taken into the u/s rooms before us...hmmmm. Good thing my bladder was not full. Finally after about 30min a tech came and got us, said she was a student. Started the scan everything looking great with Rilon he was moving all over once again. Dh had to leave a few minute into it and that made Orion cry and cry (good thing he does not have one of those lose scream cries) he settled down after about 15min. Then another tech came in (the teacher) said she wanted to re check my placenta... I am thinking my placenta?? I have not even seen my cervix scanned yet and thought maybe I missed it when Orion was crying.

U/S done (or so I thought) they lead me to another waiting area for the Dr to talk to me which was about 30 to 45min wait again........ Thank god for treats for Orion because of all days this was the day he did not want to eat breakfast right away so he only had had milk and it was running into his nap time, yet he was a good little trooper and I thought that I'd be in and out of the u/s clinic with in the 1hr or 1.5hr....never assume, I should know that by now.

Dr finally come into the room asks me if they did the trans vaginal u/s? I said no, as a matter of fact while sitting in here I was thinking they did not check my cervix because I do now what it looks like now. Dr said hmm they gave me a measurement and it looks fine but I did not see the scan in the back either, yet they say it was measuring good so we will book you again in 2 to 3weeks. Up I go to the front desk to re-book and get my photos of Rilon when I see the good Dr come out and walk up to me, I smiled and said let me guess you need me to come back. She said sorry I just am not happy with it. So back Orion and I go, wait 10min tech come to get me give me a room tells me to take my pants and underwear off and leaves, I do as she asks and 3sec later she comes back and says oh they want you in another room.... I am thinking is this day going to end. Put my pants back on and go to another room get scanned and all looks great we are free to go...We get back up to the front desk to get the photos and they said that I did not have to pay and that they were so sorry for the long wait.... it is now 1pm.

Orion passed out in a matter of seconds as I put him in his car seat. Got home he slept till 3 then we went to our play date and S & C place.

Good thing I am an easy going person, I do get impaitent but I don't show it (what is the sense to get mad)

I will post the photos later tonight. Alos the some of the video clip of Rilon for the other day.

No room for moms-to-be in S. Alberta

What!

If I go into labor now I will be shipped to Montana or somewhere else other then here.

There are no beds available for nicu. This is not something I want to add to my stress of mostly having a preemie. My Dr's keep stressing to me I will not have a full term baby. Now I have to worry about being shipped out, what about DH and Orion I am praying That Rilon stays put for 5 more weeks then I will be 33w, I just don't know I have been having tons of hardings Drs want to do the steroid shot next week I have an u/s tomorrow to see how things are going........ Man I do not need to worry about something else which adds to me to worry about my son and DH.

I really need a miracle that Beds open up or that Rilon stays put longer then expected.

It is a big thing in the news here at the moment.

Had last IVIG on Monday

28weeks (tuesday)

Went well.

I felt sorry for this older guy that came in they could not find a vein on him and took them 45min and 6pokes before I left so I am not sure if the had any success.

5 more weeks till I reach 33w.

Also went for my GD test, will find out about that next Dr appt which in on the 12th.

Dr Update

27 week Dr appointment

My normal Dr O was called away on a personal emergency so I so Dr B today. When the nurse told me this and mentioned Dr B my mind went back to William, he was the Dr I was to start to see but they took a long time to make the appointment and when they finally did I lost William 1 week before the appointment.

We (Orion and I) waited 1 1/2 hrs to see him since he had to see all of Dr O patients too (talk about backed up) While waiting there was this little boy same age as Orion walking around and then when I look at him one time he had his hand down the front of his diaper all I could think was is this what I am in for next I am keeping Orion in a onsie at all times...lol.

When I finally saw Dr B, he was nice and told me again about Dr O and that not to worry I have not lost him as a Dr..lol. He read thru my chart and said he was not going to attempt to check my cervix since I have been have contractions (tighten) he mentioned the steroid shots. He then measure my belly and laughed at the loppiness of it and when I said that is my UU he said then you defiantly should get the steroid shot at your next appointment because you will have another preemie most likely. Then he felt my belly and said you are oddly shaped like a banana but with more of a curve.

Urine ~ Normal
Weight ~ 60.0kg = 132lbs
B/P ~ 111/69
Rilon's H/B ~ 150bpm

Next appointment on Tuesday Feb 13th.
Go for GD test on Monday after my last IVIG

1...2...3....

Time out!

Is that not how it is suppose to go? I was out at a kid store the other day and this little boy was causing havoc and his mom kept saying M that is not nice, M don't do that, M get back here... then I heard her say M that is ONE (M ignored her) she then said M I said ONE (pause) Ok M ONE!
I thought should that last ONE not be THREE?? No wonder the boy M was not listening, mummy was not following the counting technique right.

Well when Orion and I left the store I bent down to him and said your were such a good boy in the store Orion mummy is proud of you. He smiled and pointed towards the sky to a plane saying Daddeeee.

Seeing what happened in the store I thought that I had better praise my boy for the good, because it did make me realise that I need to tell him more often that mommy is proud of him when he is good and that I did notice.

This is what I have read and heard you should do:
Give verbal warnings first (if possible): Verbal warnings allow the child to make choices about their behaviour and learn to change behaviour before the discipline is required.
One good technique for verbal warnings is Counting to Three: When a child is doing something wrong you say, "That's One". Then wait a few seconds. If they are still doing the unacceptable behaviour say, "That's Two". Wait a few more seconds and say "That's Three, Time Out. [Explain reason for Time-out here]". Then you escort them to the Time-out area.

Then Today I was out with my mum at the mall (My dentist) and we sat to have a bite to eat and just before we were to get up to leave I noticed this little boy sitting on the ground (pouting) I looked to see where his mom was she was sitting at a chair just a few steps away from him. She called to him and he did not listen so I heard her say ONE...... he still did not respond to her then she said TWO.... (I thought oh here we go, I wanted to see what happened... I am looking for tips) then she said that's 2 and a half....what??? once again where is THREE. So my mum and I left and that little boy was still on the ground just in a different spot.....

By all means I am not the perfect parent no one is, but seeing what others do does help me in learning what to do....... and in my learning and watching a parent needs to follow thru... to get the full effect of discipline.

I just have to remember that I have to follow thru and no empty or foolish threats.

Oh and another thing in the news I heard of a lady that left her 4 yr old in the car so she could run to the bank machine, she left the car unlocked and running....... she came back out and it was gone STOLEN with her son in the back seat. The police later found it in a near buy parking lot with the boy safe inside (thank the heavens) they think that the thief saw the boy in the back seat parked it and high tailed it out of there.
This mother was VERY lucky that nothing happened to her son.

Yes it is tempting to think you could run in and out of a store really fast and leave your kid/s in the car, but come on you have to use common sense and do your best at preventing anything bad that can happen to your kid/s and leaving them in the car alone unattended is unacceptable and can lead to disaster.

OK I am done... for now.

Ah there is an end in sight....

This cold hit me hard, I can just imagine what Orion felt when he had it and no wonder he just clung to me like he did. I wanted my mummy (but I held back on calling her....call it pride). Good thing I have such a good little boy because he was not very demanding while I layed on the couch, floor or were ever else I just sat and vegged out...lol. My nose is still stuffed up (it is amazing how much can come out of your nose..sorry TMI) My face is raw from blowing and my eyes watering.

The first bad night when DH got home from work I asked him if he was home for good, he looked at me and said yes... oh the relief I had tears in my eyes... he then sent me to bed.

My mum and sister J came buy yesterday (Fri) and did a big clean up for me, but before the started I was told to go have a nap and I was not aloud to leave my bedroom for at least 1hr...lol I slept for 2hrs. I so needed that because I only got 3hrs of sleep the night before because my body felt so restless that I could not sleep.

Anyways I or we all are on the mend now DH is all better Orion is sleeping better now no more bad cough for him while sleeping and me just stuffed up....

Rilon's Ultrasound photos and update

Went for the 26week u/s cervix check today.

When we got into the u/s room the tech introduced us to the Dr that was in traing to do u/s, I laughed and said a Dr in trainging...

Everything is measuring great, cervix is 3.2cm long and closed. Rilon is right on target 26w (25w3d via u/s's) he weighs about 970 gram = 2.138 483 943 lb
they said Rilon was the perfect baby for a newbie to learn on.

She got a really good face shot of him it looks 3dish almost, everyone in the room went whooo look at him when they saw it on the screen...looks like another one with Orson's nose again...lol

(Click on photos to see bigger)

Face

Rilon's Profile

Cervix and foot

The tech looked at me funny and said "Really?" when I asked to have a cervix pic to.

I go back for another u/s in 2weeks (Feb 8th). I had 3 tummy hardenings while we were having the scan done and did I ever get lopsided.

All is looking good.

There are some very special people out in this world ....

I never would on found them if it were not for "Cyber space", They did not have to do this but yet they chose to. Out of these women I have met only one of them... I feel close to these women, we all share a special bond (babies in heaven)

I received a gift from them to help me (since I have been told to take it easy) I will use that gift for grocery deleivery, have someone do the shopping for me and bring it to my house.

Thank you ladies you are the best, I am so glad to be a part of the Sista hood.

Well the sickies have left my DH an Orion

but I think they may be on there way to me my throat is sore.....

I really tried to say away from dh, but I guess it does not help when he sleeps in the same bed and coughs your way in his sleep. It is no fair he can sleep 4 different way while I am stuck with just on my left side, I am not to lay on my back (even tho I do sometimes) I can not lay on my tummy and it is way to uncomfortable to lay on my right side (I try but can only handle it so long) it feels like Rilon is trying to fall to the right but he can't because he is all left I guess the uterus does not flop around...lol. So I guess what I am saying is DH has 4 ways to sleep and yet he seems to face my way....hmmmm.

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I did take Orion to the Dr on Thursday and he has a upper respiratory infections (a cold) nothing I can give him other the baby Tylenol to make him more comfy. Would you not know it tho he started to feel much better after the Dr appointment. He was good he let her check him out he just did not like her looking down his throat and he gagged and then cried...

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You know I love my DH very much but I don't like him home all day for 5days....lol

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My mum and sis H came and did some house cleaning for me the other day too, still feels werid when they ask "what do you want us to do? or Where shall we start? My responsed was I don't know vaccum I guess. then they just took over from there...lol

My poor little boy

He is now fighting a bad cold. His nose is so runny his eyes are droopy and I think his head hurts buy the way he keeps grabbing at it.He is also very clingy to me, I am not getting much done but that is ok my boy wants his mommy.
Now daddy has the cold(grown men and colds....oh boy) please don't let it find me, I am washing my hands constantly.

Here is something new I tried

With a photo I took:

here is the original

And after:

I am now addicted to playing with something else on my PCS2...(it never ends...)

24 week 1 day belly photos

and loppy was not so loppy when I went to take the photo, he must of flattened out:


All is going well, so far. Rilon is very active it amazes me.

Back from Dr.... update and some ...

24weeks (23w3d as per u/s)

As you know it once again I hit every red light to get there (it is a 25min drive to get to the Dr)
And when I finally do arrive do you think I could find a parking spot, ofcourse not because my badder is FULL. So I had to drive over to the over flow parking which is about a 4min walk to the Dr office (which is fine but not on a FULL bladder) I ended up being 25minutes late for the appointment, they did not seem to care and not to mention I always have to wait about that long or even longer so see him Dr O that is.

Anyways on to the appointment:
Urine is Normal
Weight is 58.0kg (127.6 lbs)
b/p is 111/73

Rilon's heart rate was 143bmp
Dr asked about my tighting and said not to puch myself. He asked me Orion's name again and then he said spelled like O-r-i-o-n not O-r-y-a-n? I said that is right. He then said just like the constilation and started to name them all off to me, then he asked what this next ones name will be I said Rilon, he then said what not another constilaion as he lol.

So I see him in 3weeks time Feb 1st, next u/s is Jan 23rd.
Go for the Gestational test sometime after Jan 26, guess I will go on the Monday 29th.

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*Thanks for the posts and emails regarding my other post below, I was having an emotional PG day but I am feeling better now. My mum and sister J came over on the 6th did some cleaning for me, which I really appreciate. I think my other sis H said she was coming over on Monday. I just have to learn to let go.....

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Had my IVIG on Monday, I pretty much had the room to myself for most of it (sits 4 chairs) A lady came being pushed in a wheelchair by her friend, she came in for Chemo treatment, well one of them reaked of cig smoke .

All was fine till the end of my IV just as it finished and she started the finishing solution my vain popped it made me jump, it hurt so I now have a nice little bruise on my left hand and it is tender to the touch, oh well small price to pay for a healthy baby...

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I was having a shower lastnight and I was planing on shaving (to look "Pretty" for the dr appointment) and would you know it as I opend the shampoo bottle it squirts some soap my way & bang right into my right eye, it was a delayed reaction then I was blinded by the soap. My eyes would not open. I finished what I could (no shaving) with my eyes shut tight. Get out of the shower feel around for my towel dry myself off feel around for my house coat. I then try and work on my eye took about 10min to get it opened a crack. DH came up and said use my eye drops for my contacts for redness, he was laughing at me the way I was trying to put the drop in he then said let me do it... um no I said that would be worse (which brang me back to a kid when my mum would try and put drops in my eyes, I just do not like the feeling..lol) so I finally managed to get a drop in and it stung. crawled into bed and when I woke my evey was crusty but I was able to open it, it is still red and sore so I got some other drops after my Dr appt that I seemed to get in much easier without my dh standing over me watching and laughing...

Why is it that soap only went into my right eye but yet both shut tight and would not open?? And then your nose starts to go crazy when something is up with the eyes, why is that??

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Oh and one day lastweek:

I was getting ready to go out to the store and Orion was crawling around the master bedroom and dh was upstairs too, he said he was going to go down and have something to eat so I asked him to take Orion downstairs with him. Dh said but I am going to make something to eat, I said "SO". But Orion will be crawling around I said "Yes he will" Then he was trying to come up with another reason and I jsut looked at him then we laughed because that is when he realised that this is what i do everyday with the boy so he can manage it too.... so he laughed and said "I say no more"...lol
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There is my long winded update, and I prbably forgot to mention something.......

Finally here is Rilon's U/S photo

taken at 23w2d They are not the greatest photos because he was always moving...lol (something telling me he is going to be harder to take a photo of..lol)

Profile

Looking at us
(the Alien shot is what we call this one)

I will post more later I am off to the Dr right now... for my check up.

I did not mention that at my u/s they said it was

time for me to start to get help...... They want me to not lift Orion as much (kind of hard when he is still not quiet walking yet) and that I should have someone come in at least every other day to give me a rest...... This is because of my history and my tummy harding I have been getting lately.

I hate to disrupt other peoples lives to "help" me when I still feel able to do it all, but I understand why I need to start to take it easy.
It is just that my family lives pretty much on the other side of town, my mum does not like to drive in the winter and plus B does not like her to drive alone or even in the dark, my sisters have there own families to look after and yet they are all so willing to drop whatever to help me, to help my babies. I have been kindof an emtionial mess since the u/s (that I have hidding from family and DH) Seeing my unborn son so alive on the monitor and knowing that it can just change in the blink of an eye. I have been and try to go on as a "normal" pg but in reality this is not a "normal" pg I am highrisk not to mention my body fights off my pg's. My babies ahve to be and are fighters right from implantation "conception" I just hope and pray Rilon stays put till 28weeks and then we will take it from there...

U/S update, I am 3cm long...

my cervix measurement that is.. and is still closed.

When I told them of my tighten they were concerned some. DH asked what are Braxton Hicks exactly they said pretty much contractions and in your case they will not be taken to lightly.
Rilon was once again a very active boy during it and very proud to say the least at showing his boy parts off, he is following the steps of his big bro in the proudness...lol

The Dr at the u/s clinic said he wants to see me again in 2 to 3weeks so I am scheduled for
Jan 23 at 1pm. I see the High risk Dr O on Jan Tues the 9th.

So far so good other then the BH happening.

Orion kept pointing at the screen and laughing, so it starts early the teasing eh...lol

They would not let DH take a video from his camera phone which is werid because last time they let us use the digital camera and video it... just have to be sneaking next time.


I will re-take the pic tonight an post them.

Go for U/S tomorrow morning...

23w 1d

hoping to see a closed and long cervix

In reality I could have a baby in 10weeks hoping for at least 12 to 13weeks. I also noticed that after this months IVIG I only have one more (goes till 28weeks), and when I was pg with Orion on my last IVIG (29weeks)it was exactly one month to the day that I had him.

I have been feeling a lot of tighten and pressure today (more then normal), is that what braxton hicks is like? Rilon has been active today as well. I am also getting very uncomfortable now, this boy is really on the left I have to sit leaning to the right so I can stretch m left side to be comfy, he sticks out more on my left side it seems more then what Orion did.

Where did the time fly too, having Orion is truly a blessing he has kept me busy.

Guess who took his 1st STEP.....

1year 3m 2w 6d

I was playing with Orion this morning getting him to stand and not expecting him to take that step, he surprised me. He did it a couple of more times and even for daddy..... YEAH!

He also has had more teeth come in on top, here is his teeth count so far:

Where have you been????

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Ofcourse I have been across Canada, traveled to The Carribean with a quick stop in at Puerto Rico which I would LOVE to go visit one day.

Got this off of Jules blog

Xmas 2006

We had a great Chrsitmas this year.

Orion seemed to not notice he sat on Santa's lap for his photo, he was more interested in the lights as you see him pointing to them:


And a few of Christmas morning, my mum and stepdad stayed the night. Orion still not to sure what it is all about, I am also glad he was spoiled for xmas this year either. He only got a few gifts no one went crazy on him, which makes me happy because it is not about the gifts.

Here are a few photos: (click on picture to see bigger)

My teary eyed DH

DH finally saw the video I did for William.

When I showed him I kind of stood back, but as it started my dh look back at me and pulled me too him to sit on his lap, tears fell down my face as I watched it agian (I was doing fine before but as I watched it with him it was different) My Dh was taken back with it as the tears filled his eyes too. When it was done he went back to the photo of William and said you just wonder what he would of been like..... then he looked at me and said well done, and I think I will be messed for the rest of the night (not in a bad way)

William's Dance

In memory of our little boy born too soon at 19weeks, 3 years ago today.....

Click on photo to see the video:




or click here:

William's Dance

I think I was giving a sign that all is going to be ok....

that all is going to be ok..because last night or early this morning Orion was laughing/giggling in his sleep and just as he was finished Rilon woke and was rolling and kicking my insides pretty good and when I looked at the time and it said 4am, that is when I thought of my William because you see 3yrs ago today early in the wee morning at 4am my water broke with him.....

That is why I feel I was giving a sign that all is fine, my babies are my little miracles One is here and the other is working on getting here safe..

I needed that sign............... thank you

Family Photo for the year...

Here is the Christmas Pic I took with our Santa hats on, I sprung the hats on DH so he had no choice to wear it...lol (Orion looks like he is up to something)


And here is the Family photo, I will say that Orion did good in 98% of the photos. I guess it is a good thing that I have the camera in his face a lot.lol.

Finally

got the Christmas tree up. I would of liked it up earlier but what can I do, I can not go and pull out all the ornaments and the tree because DH piled up to much stuff in front of my Xmas stuff and being pg I can not get to and well DH is just to busy right now so my mum and sis J came over today to help out. Got to love family, always there for you..... Tree is up still standing Orion has had no interest in it just yet, I am not making it a big deal for him that he'd want to touch so hopefully that works.

Taking Orion to see Santa tomorrow we will see how that goes, will he be smiling in the picture or screaming his head off at Santa to let him go...lol (a photo will follow tomorrow.

Also took photos of my mum and papa bear (B) and they took a couple with Orion turned out cute here is a pic:

one with mommy and daddy will follow soon.......

Dr Update

20 weeks

Dr appointment went great, other then waiting 1hr to see the Dr. Good thing I put more then enough money in the parking meter.

As Orion and I were in the waiting area I notice this one women looked very familiar to me but all I could see was her profile, then she look at her DH to say something and saw me looking at her then her eyes went big and I said I thought that was you...lol When she stood up and saw the big wonderful belly of hers I said you guys did it I am so happy for you (they have being trying for 5.5yrs thru IVF to get pg with one loss) She said baby was due Friday so they are now going to induce her this Friday, her DH was so excited that they get to meet there baby girl very soon.

Well my appointment went well, the blood pressure machine would not work on me so the had to do it the old way..lol.

Weight: 124lbs / 54.6kg
Urine: Normal
B/P: 100/66
my belly measurement was 21weeks (one week ahead but 4 day behind in the u/s's)
Rilon's heart rate was 140bpm (as he kicked the Doppler)

Next u/s is Jan 4th at 11am, next Dr appointment is Jan 9th at 1:50pm

I think that is all if not I will edited this later...lol

What is Orion up to .......

1yr3m (15m) Old

Well what is Orion up to these days.....

He has figure out that he can stand on thing to get higher up and reach for things on the counter, so anything that looks good to stand on he will try it.


He also has figured out how to move around in his little car, by pushing it with his feet. He LOVES to put things together then take it apart, he even like to put things that will fit in to jars, cupboards what ever container he can get his hands on then the hunt is on to find something that will fit into it. He is turning into a little dare devil, he gets into a position then can not get out of it, so mommy comes to the rescue when I hear the call....

I went to Wal-mart the other day and bought Orion and x-mas gift, Mega Bloks wagon with some mega bloks for $9.96, then I went to ToysRus the next day saw the same toy for $29.99 holy crap, I think that is just crazy.
We went to a Craft sale at a women's group thing "Day Break" my friend W is involved with and Orion would not say a word to anyone but as soon as the guess speaker started to talk and the room quieted down guess who else decided to speak. Yup the BOY...lol

By golly I've been tagged.....

Lynanne Tagged me check out her blog: Taking the road less traveled

A - Available or Single? Nope, I am married

B - Best Friend? Cyrena and Wendy (they are the ones that stuck by me thru thick and thin)

C - Cake or Pie? Pie, Strawbeery Rubbarb YUM YUM

D - Drink of Choice? Water or Hot Tea

E - Essential Item you use every day? Toilet paper..lol

F - Favorite Color(s)? I'd say Blue

G - Gummy Bears or Worms? Neither

H - Hometown? in Alberta

I - Indulgence? Nice long hot shower

J - January or February? Hmm they are both so clod here, lets say Feb b/c it is getting closer to spring.

K - Kids and Names? Orion and Rilon is on the way

L - Life is Incomplete Without? My Family

M - Marriage Date? August

N - Number of Siblings? 3 older

O - Oranges or Apples? Apples

P - Phobias or Fears? Something happen to my son or Husband

Q - Fave Quote? "In order to achive what you need, you can never give up" Hope, by Shaggy"

R - Reason to Smile? My son's (His playful ways about him)

S - Season? Fall, every thing changes color

T - Tag Three people: Planet Jules , You Just Never Know, Expressions of Love
(sorry ladies :) )

U - Unknown fact about me? I don't swear

V - Vegetable you don't like? Broccoli

W - Worst Habit? Cracking my fingers (well pretty much alot of my body cracks)

X - Xtremely BIG Husker Fan? What??

Y - Your fave food? Pasta

Z - Zodiac Sign? Aries

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19 weeks

I made it to 19weeks, I dreaded this week it scares me like you would not know. I have been emotional and quiet these past few days..... December is a hard month it marks another year.

Anyways.....

I took a belly photo today for 19weeks also took a lopsided belly shot, this little boy is very active, almost like he is telling me all is well mommy.
(you can click on pic to see bigger)

My lefty UU

Went shopping today Orion was so good the boy LOVES to be out, and loves the lights every time we pass one he points up and says dzee (I believe hes saying light, it is the same sound every time) Guess shopping tuckered him out, must be hard being pushed around and carried all day...lol

He got a few tops and a winter coat out of the deal.

Got to LOVE E-bay

I got a remote for my Canon XT1 (400D) SLR digital camera and it works like a charm.

Could not find one here it the city yet.

I am excited, now I can take family photos..... now only if I can get dh to saty home long enough, that man is always on the go...geesh.

A mini video clip I did

of Rilon's ultrasound



I also add the ultrasound photos to his photo site (to the right)

Ultrasound UPDATE

18w 2d

Well it was fun waking up at 6am (NOT) I woke 1min before my alarm was to go off. I got up searched for my clothes in the dark, had to find my mini flash light. tip toe to the bathroom (not to wake DH yet) get dress, do makeup and hair and then tip toe back out of the room. Time to wake Orion (what a little happy man he is) I see him on his tummy with his butt in the air...lol (that is when I need my camera on me) so I rub his back he snorts,and snorts again then he laughs and looks up at me.... Nice and easy to get the boy up. Get him dressed and fed, I drink my water and eat my cereal. Dh is up. We get out the door at 7:25am appointment is for 7:45am think we are going to make it...lol

8:05am we get to the clinic.

1st off I forgot what rush hour was like, sure glad I do not drive in that anymore..lol
Once again did not have to wait to long. It was the same tech as last time and she remembered us too. The babe is doing great very very active, everything is perfect. The baby is measuring 17w6d I am 18w2d (in all the u/s baby has measured 3 to 4 days behind). She said the baby was a great one to do the u/s on.

So tell me what do you all think of the name - - - -

Rilon (Rye-lun) Clement.

Orion is going to have a little brother.

I will post more photos later, it is better to retake the pics at night time with my digital camera. The photo you see is from the movie from my old digital we brought with us, I will do a belly pic too. thanks again so much......

I can't believe another little boy! I was thinking girl too...lol Guess I should of took the hint when I woke up with the name Rilon in my head 4 days before I found out I was pg...lol

I told DH that for the next one (yup looks like we may try for that girl) we will have to do the deed BD,( aka baby dance) a few days before O to try for a girl because with Orion we BD on O day and with this one or shall I say Rilon we BD on O day too (let me tell you that was a painfull O day too) I am not sure what is worse Ovulation pain or AF cramps. be sure to check back with the photo update later..... A boy! Wow!

Rilon is giving me jabs right now..lol oh which reminds me that my placenta is behind the baby(the back of my uu) that is why I am feeling him move more then I did with Orion, my placenta was up front.

DR update

18weeks

1st off it was flipping cold out yesterday -28 °F / -34 °C.

Well we get there and I am lucky to find a parking spot clostest to the building, I get out to pay for the parking which is $1.00 for every 20min so I put in $4.00 so I have 80 minutes to get in and out off the office. I get in to the clinic forget what floor to go to so I guess Floor 2 door open good guess. I push Orion up to the nurses desk and she tell me I need to go back to the front desk to get my papers, I get the papers, go in to the washroom to do the pee strip test which was normal, weigh myself which was 55.4kg / 122lbs then I sit to have my blood pressure taken still nice and good at 114/74, I then ask do I need to go sit in the waiting room she said nope I have a room for you (I was shocked, so very rare..lol)

As the nurse was asking my questions about my pg I heard the nurse directing Dr O to where I was so when I saw him I waved and he laughed "ah there you are" then looks at me and says "I saw you last year right?" I said "Yup you helped him (I point to Orion) get here" he looks at Orion and says "hmm good looking boy" Orion looks at him and smiles. Dr O then sits and starts to look over my chart, he then says "ah yes you are the one with the Unicornuate Uterus and on the IVIG" . We then went over my history he asked when my 18week u/s is, which is Thursday Dr O then said lay down and we will take a listen as he was looking for the doppler he mentioned for me to book another appoint in 4week (I was thinking what that is sure a long time) and we listened to the Babe's heart rate 155bpm then he said well that is good. He helped me up and then looked at me and said maybe I should check your cervix, which happened to be long and closed. as he helped me up again he said make sure at you u/s that they check your cervix as well tell them I asked them too. Then he said and book your next appointment for 2weeks considering your history we will keep watching you like we did with your last pg.

Next Dr O appt is Dec 12th.

I was in and out of there in 35min, n never fails I put to much money in the parking machine and and that is when the Dr Office is moving fast and if I'd put just $2 in they would of been slow..

Dh & I went out

to his works Xmas party.

When he 1st mentioned it he was telling me that he was not going to go till his co-massage worker said her DH was going so dh said he was going to go now... I said can I not go?? He looked at me and said oh I did not think you'd want to. I said well Orion is older I feel fine with my mum watching him. He then said ok then we are going on a date...lol.

Yes mum and B watched Orion for the night and stayed over.

DH and & went to the party the food was great (Lebanese food) then thru out the night we watched one to many people drinkng just a few too many, we swear one girl was on something else she bit another girls thumb (drew blood) and then at one point she came over to me and said in a drunken high drawl the she was going to drag me and my family to the dance floor... I said to her NO your not...lol DH was ready to jump across the table if she tried to. I was worried she was going to fall on me.

Then I went to the ladies room at one point and there were about 5 girls (in Early 20's) they were decided how high this one girl should be hiking up her skirt. When they finally came out her skirt was just below her but, and apparently she was not wearing underwear! She is a very pretty girl but she is coming off like a slut.... what an image to have.

DH and I got home around midnight because the restaurant turned in to a bar at 11pm and all it took was one to lite up his cigarette and all the others followed.... yuck!

We had fun, we dance some and laughed lots.

Ultrasound in 3 days ....

Thursday morning at 7:45am!

Hoping for open leg vibes and that all is well with this babe.
I can not believe I will be 18w tomorrow.

I will tell you I have been pretty emotional and scared for these upcoming weeks, getting closer to when I lost William makes me so nervous. I have been having some tummy Harding so I just lay down drink more water and they go away, I will mention it to my Dr Tomorrow I see the high risk Dr O at 1pm hopefully it is just my UU being irritable.

And I am still nauseous a lot.

Ultrasound booked

for Nov 30 at 7:45am, when the nurse said that to me I had to have her repeat the time..lol I did not know they opened that early, man that means I have to get up no later then 6am get dressed eat wake Orion feed him (well I will get dh to do that while I am getting dressed since it only takes him a few minutes to get ready). I phoned my mum and told her when the u/s is and the a slowly said what time and she too had me repeat it, said oh um well not sure we will make that one that is to bad. After we hung up it was about 5min later the phone rings and it was my stepdad saying there was a mistake, I said mistake? he said yes we will not be missing the u/s we will be there...lol. They are proud grandparents I will saw that for sure. (200% more then DH's side)

No tummy harding today so that is good.

So what do you all think is it Pink or Blue, hopefully we will get a good peak at the Babe's gender. I am thinking pink myself but hey there is a 50 50 chance of me getting that right..lol

I am not sure but I think

16w4d

I am feeling movements inside, it is like a weird flutter type thing then a jab, not a hard jab just something that I normally do not feel. I have also noticed that my tummy is get hard at times, so I drink lots of water and rest it seems to settle down(it happens more at night time while sleeping). If it keeps happening I will be calling my Dr on Monday. This is what happen to me with William but yet it feels different. Trust me I will be keeping a very close eye or hand on the tummy.

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I finished William video montage, I cried a few times while doing it, but It is now done. I will post it on the day he was born which is Dec 21.